I got scolded by my aunt the first thing I got home just now. Well, I'm used to coming home and receiving a scolding instead of a welcome. Though the thing that she reprimanded me for may have been legitimate, it was not done in love but rather, in anger and frustration. And you know ,when someone doesn't speak to you in love, you're naturally not receptive to it.

Home has never been a place I genuinely look forward to coming back to. Because I know what awaits me is not a warm welcome, a loving embrace but strife, judgment and unkind words. So at the end of the day, I just become very practical about what a house is for. And you can't blame me for that.

I'm determined that all the mistakes made by my previous generations will end with me. My future family will be a joyful and peaceful one. I'm gonna create a home where it is a safe haven - one that you can't wait to run back to because you know that you will be so welcomed back, that your presence was missed and that you will not be judged but rather, loved and accepted for who you are. A home where you are allowed to make mistakes and will not feel condemned when you trip and fall. A home where you have so much fun, laughter and joy. A home where you learn good things so naturally and not have to be forced into blind obedience. The list of good things doesn't end. And I can hardly wait for this dream to come to pass. =)

4 more months to my 21st Birthday! =)

I'm so glad that I dragged myself out of the house today! The other result would be unimaginable! I glad that I'm surrounded by people who are wiser, stronger and positive! My friends who will always be there for me and stand by me when I'm in need . . . thanks so much really. You know who you are , all of you. =) *Big hugs* from me.

Had dinner at Fish n Co with Zoe, Jo and Jamie! Thank you Zoe for the treat, Jo for the ride home (though I doubt u will see this since u dun read blogs, haha =p) and Jamie for making me happy! I always have so much fun when Jamie is around. We are both super "I" people. ;)

I think I startled Jo and especially Jamie when I got really excited and was pretty aggressive in my speech. Oops. Sorry Jamie. I shall learn to be assertive and not aggressive in my speech. =)

What I got home today was:

1. I gotta be fierce and fight for what I want. When you and I don't fight for what we want, what we dun want will take over and the result is oh my gosh, I can hardly imagine! I dun want what I dun want to take over so I gotta fight for what I want! Fight tooth and nail, FIGHT! Be a fighter Wendy!



2. I can't let others fight the battle for me, I have to fight my own battles!
   

Thank you for the word B. Darren. =)

No battles, no victory! Sometimes I stand down and lose the will to fight. But I will get up again. I will always get up again!

I'm going through a valley and it's not easy but my breakthrough is waiting for me at the end when I walk through it. My breakthrough is coming! Keep walking, keep fighting!

My heart is not a playground. It's fragile, it's precious and needs to be handled with care.

PMS

Crying spells, moodiness, fatigue, leg cramps, weakened immunity, choc cravings and pimple outbreak equals PMS for me! When I get to heaven, I think the first person I will look for is Eve. I think our conversation will go something like this:

Wendy: Hello Eve, what was so great about the apple?

Eve: Well I dunno, the devil made me eat it.

Wendy: Uh - huh, but did you know yr one bite tormented billions of women worldwide with the thing called PMS?

Eve: PMS?

Wendy: Yes, Pre-Menstral Syndrome. It makes females bla bla bla bla (tells her the whole list of proven, scientifically documented symptoms) before their period comes every month. EVERY MONTH. Why did you had to (%(#)$)@## eat the *$(&($@( apple!!!???

Eve: *remains silent*

Wendy: *rolls eyes and heads for chocolate buffet in Heavenly & Divine Choc Street*

Laughs! =D

I feel much better now. Thank God. And I'm really blessed to have Joelle around. I know I can always count on her. You know sometimes you wonder if anyone at all understands what u're going through, and after sharing with her, it really made me feel that I'm not alone in this fight. That someone understands, that when I'm sinking in the mud and can't see the light, I can reach out my hand and someone will reach out theirs and save me.

I need a miracle, God!

Anyway, Jamie, Darrenn, George and I went dancing at DblO on Sat night! Everything was a treat! =) It was a super last min decision but it really turned out fun because JAMIE the Hottie was dancing with me! She dances so so well! Loves it! =) It has always been my dream to dance with her on the dancefloor. ;)

We are the life of the party!!! =D

I want the happy, cheerful, bubbly, joyful Wendy back. Come back, come back.

Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey, but made popular again by the dashing David Cook

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die
No . . .

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way

But inevitably, you'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end
No

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back, boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
(I know that) you'll be right back
Oh baby, believe me
It's only a matter of time . . .

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

All We Are - One Republic

I tried to paint you a picture
The colours were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you and all along
you were shaded with patience
You're strokes of everything
that I need just to make it
and I believe that

Time can tear you apart
But it won't break anything that you are, you are . . .

We won't say our goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break
We won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are
All we are is everything that's right
All we need
All we need
A lover's alibi
Oh oh

I walked a minute in your shoes
They never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship is running ground

Time can tear you apart
But it won't break anything that we are, we are . . .

We won't say our goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break
We won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are
All we are is everything that's right
All we need
All we need
A lover's alibi
Oh
Oh
Oh

Every single day that I can breathe you change my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by

So don't say your goodbyes
You know its better that way
We won't break
We won't die
It's just a moment of change, yeah
Ooh
Ooh
Oh

I've been very tui bu qi to my loyal blog readers because I don't update my blog often nowadays. Especially Victor, who checks my blog like 5 times day (u want to stress me out rite!? haha. :P).

I finally completed my assignment in the afternoon, having read 515 pages and typing a 1200+ summary on 5 points that impacted me the most. I really did gain something from doing the assignment. It was not just doing a dead piece of homework. And I could do it with relative ease. =)

Next assignment is due this coming Friday and it's only 500 words and is a much slimmer book so should be chicken feet already. ;) And I'm sure Benny Hinn's book is gonna be interesting. =) Exams next Thurs and Friday! All MCQs so I'm sure I will enjoy doing it. I love MCQs! Haha.

Today marks 2 months of SOT! So far so good! Tiring but still great nonetheless. I think the next 2 months plus is gonna be more awesome!!! So looking forward to it! =D Next week, we're gonna try on our graduation gowns already. So fast rite? 24 Aug is graduation day. ;)

Anyway, I have not been hanging out or entertaining myself since watching SATC last Sun and I only have Sun this week to really let my hair down, feed my soul and have some solid good fun! Still comtemplating if I should catch the Big Groove dance concert at Expo on Sun because it's $25!

Yawns, I woke up and wrote this entry, back to bed now! =) I'm in hostel btw and I hear and see that some people are still up at this hour!

Going to JB for dinner tonight!! I shall take pictures and post them here and revive my otherwise getting-dull-and-boring blog! ;)

Sleepy and tired!

" He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint. "