You popped my heart seams, all my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

She was run over by a truck and left to bleed.

And I know that it’s complicated

But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

 

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

 

I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

 

Hooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
WOW

Smell the Flowers & Admire the Rainbow

It's time to be single again.


Smell the flowers and admire the rainbow.


I can do this.


Even if I can't, I probably should die trying.


I suppose I don't mean that literally.


Jesus, come back quickly, plsss? Life is much harder than I had expected it to be.


And if I take my own life, I might just end up in hell and I don't want that.


I did promise my blog readers that I won't take my own life.


Breaking that would make me such a big ass promise breaker.


But at least I'll have a million people reading this entry in no time and psychologists can analyze my blog and see how a crazy person thinks.


Let's play a love game, do you want love or you want fame? Cos it seems like you can't have the best of  both worlds.


I mean, which person who has committed suicide had talked about it on their blog before he/she jumped?


I should really scrap my dreams of getting married to the love of my life and starting a happy and warmth family of my own.


It seems like the more I think about it everyday, the harder I fall and the more painful and dreary life becomes.


I have let my passions consumed me, quite literally.


And all I'm left with now are the scars on my heart and my broken dreams.


You know, I have a relationship with my blog.


I can scream, yell and use cuss words when I'm really upset or I can be damn happy and be skipping around on my entries. Whatever it is, my blog loves me and I love my blog.


My blog doesn't judge me or expect me to become someone else. But human beings do.


And I'm trying not to blame them. I mean, who wouldn't want to judge Wendy Ang?


Everything she says or does just make people want to judge her. She screams "Judge Me!" all over her forehead.


She's not who we expect her to be.


She can be better. She can be wiser. Stronger. Tougher.  Less emotional. Less emotional. Less emotional. Wait, have I said that 3 times already? Less emotional. More hardworking, more responsible, earn more money, more everything. No wait, LESS emotional. Oh ya, and definitely less attention seeking too. Ah yes, smile more, definitely smile more.


I mean, c'mon, she's a professing Christian. And she's a freaking 22-yr-old working adult.


She should know better right?


Oh oh, and how come she always sound so negative on her blog?


A Christian needs to say positive things and be an encouragement to others reading man.


I thought the title of this entry is 'Smell the Flowers & Admire the Rainbow'? Huh?


There, I feel better already. Blogging it out just makes me happy.


LIVE with it. :)

But I Don't Want To Be Like This

I was really happy and then I saw what someone did and I immediately feel hurt.


Me: Why do I desire to be loved by people so badly?


Aaron: 因为你缺乏爱。


Me: But I don't want to be like this... *stares into space*


God, you got to help this emotional wreck. 

FLASHERS!

Have u seen the Lady Gaga Flash Mob in Madrid yet!?

The dancers are fab okay!??? Check out their moves and their costumes!

I sure hope Mother Monster sees it and goes to Madrid!

And then it hit me...

CHC should totally do a flash mob when we move to Suntec Convention come March next year!!

It will go down in our church history as the inaugural flash mob by a bunch of brave and crazy members and be reminiscence for the next 50 years or something!?

How's that!? 

By then, flash mobs would have become a classic!

Maybe I should email Ryan my idea and get it going!! =D

I can already imagine the City News Headline!

"500 Brave Souls Flash Mob to CHC's New Home"

I'm in!




The participants can dress up as prominent people in church!!!



Guess who I would wanna dress up as!???? :)



If only she can be the one leading the flash mob! Oh yeah.

P.S: I know, I am totally thinking further than the imminent Asia Conference !

My Rich & Crazy Friends from INDIA!

I made these 2 new friends in the last few months and they are both from India!


They inspire me shitloads.

 
Both have left their country to pursue their undergraduate studies in NUS, and both come from extraordinary backgrounds.


I'm not gonna name them just in case they’re shy and wish to remain anonymous! :)


The first, his father is a businessman who owns tea plantations in India and earns millions of dollars every year. He has many workers and servants in his big houses!


He is 19 years old, the only son in his family and hence, the de-facto inheritor of his father's business! Yes, think Paris Hilton.


The amazing thing however, is that though he is born with a sliver spoon, he doesn't want to just live in his father's shadow... He doesn't want to take over his business even after he graduates!


At least not without 1st making it out on his own!


If I were him, I can imagine myself just lying in the comfort of my big couch and have my servants feed me grapes and fan me all day! Think Cleopatra! Hahaha! Travel to a foreign land to mug like crazy and having to fend for myself? Forget about it!


So it amazes me that my friend wants to set up a tea business of his own in Singapore,despite his father’s disagreement...


And the catch is that he has to make more money than his father in a few years, and hence "justifiable", otherwise he will have to go back to India and be the Director of his dad's company.


Not an easy feat! In fact, highly challenging and yet he believes it is gonna happen and is taking steps towards it!


And someone who is from as good a background as his had this to say about me:

Far and wide have I sought,
For a maiden with a golden heart.
Billions of souls have I sought,
For a dreamer with a limb on humble Earth,
And another on the sublime heavens,
Perhaps she dwells in the Elysian Lawns!

And after decades of seeking,
Behold I found my magic mirror
And I asked:
“Mirror-mirror on the wall,
Who is the fairest of them all?”
And the mirror simply replied:
“Wendy is the fairest of them all!”

“Describe her,” I commanded:
“Seek the one who is pure at heart.
Seek that innocence in the eye,
That you know cannot lie.
Seek the soul that’s untouched by the evil,
Seek the maiden that lives among the mortals,
Yet has her base on the heavens.”

The hunt for the pure one resumed,
It was a tiresome journey.
It’s said that good things come to those,
Who wait.
Alas that was true … for we did find her.
And was blessed by her presence,
We found Wendy Ang.

I teared.


There are people in this world who value my worth and he has expressed it so creatively & genuinely to me in this poem despite our brief friendship.

I love you my friend. And you had better get yr tea business going or I’m gonna kick your butt. :)

And just when I thought one crazy friend from India is already enough, God sends me another one!



He attended Fashion In the Sky in March and I subsequently got to know him, thanks to Facebook! =) We met up once and he turns out to be A REAL CRAZY DUDE!


He talks with an unbelievable amount of energy! And I thought I was the Energizer Bunny but he, my friends, beat me hands down anytime! Imagine that!


He is also extremely intelligent and intellectual, and I do mean extremely! You will have to talk to him yourself to know what I mean!


His father passed away when he was really young and his mum is a medical doctor!


He started trading and generating his wealth when he was 17 years old. 17!!!!??????


He attended Harvard summer school. Harvard leh!!! The top university in the world!


And he owns a company in Boston in the United States doing research on renewable sources of energy and makes lots of money every month without needing to be there all the time and he is only as old as I am, 22!


All that achievements and you know what he tells me????


That I inspire him!


He called last night after reading my blog entry and you know what’s one of the best things he told me?


“When I make it to Times’ 100, I’m gonna have a party and I’ll invite Lady Gaga and you to attend.”

 
I laughed and replied, “That’ll be great!” And when I make to the list before you do, I’ll invite you too! Hahaha.”

I'm Wendy in Wonderland. :) Yes, my hair defies gravity! =D

It's friendships like these that touch my heart and make my life meaningful.

I can come from a humble background that is a stark contrast from theirs but they wouldn't think any less of me as a person and at the end of the day, we can still love each other for who we are and mutually inspire each other.

How about you? Do u have such friends too? Share with me in the comments, I wanna know! :)

Thank you my friends! <3 *group hug* HAHAHA! =p

A New Day Has Dawned

My bf and I are good now btw, just in case you're worried or concern!


Many challenges have been taking place in my life the last few months. But it's all good. 1st of May 2010 marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life:


From this day forward, I will never wish that I can go to heaven quickly just cos living in this earth is too much for me to take.


For this day forward, I declare that I am free. Doesn't mean it won't be challenging from now on, but it just means that I am starting anew on a better foothold.


And I will continue to grit my teeth and fight. When I fall, I will get up again, and again and again and again and again.


Today, I make a commitment to myself and to you reading that I will never take my own life which I had thought of in the past. I'm not even the sole proprietor of it to begin with. :)


That would have meant that the battle was lost, that I had not fulfilled what I say to you today. And I'll be kidding you if I told you that the battle ahead is easy.


Trust me, it's not. It's in fact, very, very intense at times. My enemies want to shut me down. They want me to stop trying. They want me to stop influencing. They want me to just throw in the towel and give in. But I declare today that they will not win.


If you are reading this, what you can do to help is to say a prayer for me and be encouraging towards me, pls, I beseech you, that keeps me alive more than you know it. Thank you. :)


If you are reading this, and you hate me, I can only say that one day I hope that you will come around. Because I didn't mean to upset you and hating doesn't make your life a better place. :)


I'm gonna break the ceiling.


Society and people try to box you in to conform to their image and their norms and deem you as a freak when you don't but the fact of the matter is this -  You can never attain happiness or find joy in trying to become the person that other people want you to be, when that person is not who you would like for yourself deep down inside.


Society doesn't like people who are different, or who do things differently, who choose different paths, because many times to "them", 'different' is equivocal to wrong and that is furthest from the truth.

There are more than 6 billion different people in the world. Each with different abilities, interests, habits and dreams, who are we kidding?

Don't force yourself to give up the music that you so love just because they say it's not practical and just do what they want even though you know you will be terribly unhappy doing it. Don't. Resist the temptation to conform.


It's easy to conform. It's easy to not be criticized and looked down by people, very easy.


Go ahead and be fearless, be the person that you were meant to be all along. They are gonna hate you for it. But be fearless anyway. Chase after your dreams like you were gonna die tomorrow and don't let those dreamkillers stop you.


They'll catch up.


Think Lady Gaga. Her parents were so upset with her initially for wearing little clothes and prancing around in clubs (I think most Singaporeans would too), but look at her now, she's on the cover of Times Magazine for being one of top 100 Most Influential People in The World, just next to Bill Clinton.

 Cool or what!? :)

I have not read or bought a single Times Magazine for more than 5 years but I'm gonna go pick up that one. Cos Lady Gaga has influenced me to.


Now, her parents have caught up. And they are more than supportive.


Can you just imagine for one second if she had easily given up performing years ago just because her parents were not supportive of it?


Yes, the world would be a dull place without that free bitch in it. Just like the world will be a dull place without you in it. No, not the 'you' that others try and force you to become. The 'you' that you truly desire and enjoy being, that's the undiluted 'you'.


Definitely, love much and give much in the process but never forget to love yourself too in the meantime cos it can only work both ways. That is what it means to love your neighbor as you love yourself.


You can only do something that comes from your heart. Anything else will not last or it will only make you damn miserable after a while. And the worse thing that can happen is that rather than just kissing the frog, you end up marrying it. Don't! The prince is waiting for you!

 

Let's just face it, you will never be happy in being a people-pleaser and you can never meet up to all their expectations and demands.


Because if you know Economics, there are unlimited demands but only limited supply. It is not going to stop.


You can only become the person that God wants you to be and you need to release yourself from societal expectations for you to just be like everyone else you see.


Don't become diluted and lose your uniqueness.


Dig deep. Find out who you are, what you stand for as a person and where your passions lie.


And chase after it with every fiber of your being. That's what you were created to do.


You are gonna be mocked at, despised, criticized, rejected, unappreciated, misunderstood and hated. Even by those whom you call friends, by those whom you call family. Very, very painful. Extremely.


Do it anyway.


Because in the final analysis, it's not really between you and them, it's between you and you and you and Him.


At the end of the day, you want to touch your heart and say, I am happy with myself, I am at peace with myself. I love myself. I am who I am supposed to be and live is worth living. Life is so fulfilling.


It's a new day for me, my dear friends and readers.


I wish that your days will be filled with much love, happiness and purpose.


That doesn't mean there's not gonna have suffering and pain along the way. It just means that when the rubber meets the road, it's all gonna be worthwhile.


The dash between the year that you were born and the year that you are gonna die is gonna be a life lived beautifully, authentically, happily and lovingly. And that will effect in more of other such lives.


Because you become powerful and influential when you are hammered and shaped into the very person that you were made to be and many others' lives will be deeply touched and impacted.


There's not another of you in the world. You're the only one. So don't give in to that opposing force that tries to make you fit in like a mass factory product and conveniently tells you, "That's life, just live with it and shut up."


Whatever for?


No one knows or understands your dreams more than you yourself. No one.


You are the best you and there's nothing they can do about it.


So you can be free, truly, truly free.


I will look back and remember this day and this entry. May you have these memorable pivotal points in your life too.


May you find your niche and not be squeezed by "them" into an ugly box that you can't even fit into!


The sky is the limit, and the world? Your playground.


The desire to die quickly was me trying to take the easy way out. But not anymore.


Let's enjoy the journey together cos I still want to live and fulfill my purpose here on earth before I go home to be with Jesus. And I have a great one. I can feel the strong sense of God's calling upon my life... always have.


I think I have a looottt more to accomplish, my time is not up and I will live a good many years. :)


YAYS! Haha. <3


Much Love,
Lady Wen

"Boundaries don't keep other people out... they fence you in. Life is messy... that's how we're made."

Lots of tissue paper, some bible reading and 2 episodes of Grey's Anatomy later... I gave in.  I texted and called him!

And then, I got frustrated again and hanged up. 

My alarm clock is set to 7am but I'm not even sleepy! 

Now, back to more Grey's Anatomy. It's my therapy.

Don't get me? Read the title again. :)

Because "Happily Ever Afters" Only Exist in Fairytales

I was so sure that he was the one for me. Maybe I was wrong, maybe he isn't the one for me afterall. Maybe I'm not even the right one for him, *sarcastic smile*.

New Love!

Advertorial



I haven't been blogging much, have I? Well… I was kinda afraid of telling the world about my new lover. I was afraid of what you might think of me. Yes, I’m human too.


The old one kinda bores me sometimes… so I had to move on to someone new, someone, fresh. Someone that will never quarrel with me.

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My Hubstation! Hubber hubber!

He, my friends, is a Digital Video Recorder (DVR) that comes with 160GB of hard disk space which is equivalent to 80 hours of recording! Now, no other lover would have as much holding power as him! =P



I never have to miss my fave shows again even when I’m not home cos I can just record and watch them whenever I want to, thanks to Starhub Cable TV!!




If you are the 539,000 (figure from I.S Mag) Singaporeans households that are part of my lover’s club, I know u're loving it too! But wait, that makes 4 million other households who watch nothing else but Channel 5, 8, U, Okto and what nots!? U dunno the fab programs you’re missing out on on other channels!

 Oh my gee, you can’t miss Glee!

Yes, It’s bout a bunch of high school kids but before u say, “CHEY!”, I can assure u that it’s so much more sophisticated and believable than High School Musical!



It deals with the dramas in life that many of us go through, teenage pregnancy (okay maybe not that many of us! haha), divorce, fights among classmates, issues with parents, BGRs and more but the my fave thing about the show is definitely the humor, oh oh wait, I said the show is sophisticated… it’s really about desire and passion! ;)

Glee is about wanting something and doing whatever it takes to get it! Now I’m sure you can identify with that, you over-achieving Singaporeans! =p

I can go on and on about what shows u’re missing out like So You Think You Can Dance (I don’t think I can dance anymore after watching them! They’re mad awesome dancers! *pales in comparison), CSI, Grey’s Anatomy (OMG IT’s SOOOO GOOD, better than orgasm ladies, KIDDING) and many more but I shall not bore you with it, you can the drift!

I didn’t even had to waste any time to physically queue at the Starhub customer servies centres, nor did I have to be put on hold on 1627! Loves it!



I just had to take 3 simple steps:


1. Check out Starhub.com.sg to see which are the basic groups I want to subscribe to

2. Give my friend Alvin (a hardcore Man U Liverpool fan! Shit, now all the Liverpool Man U fans will boycott him!) a call

3. And meet with him to sign a form. He can basically meet you anywhere in Singapore to your convenience! I met with him for like 5 seconds at Expo after our service! ;)



Then a technician from Starhub came to my place to install it and voila!

Talk about a hassle-free lover! And one that will always be there to entertain you 24/7, make you laugh and cry, educate you about life, update you on the latest happenings just by pressing his buttons? Where to find? =D

 

Not even my bf can do that! Okay lah, at least my he can hug and whisper sweet nothings to me but my Hubstation can’t! Hahaha! Oh oh, but when my bf is boring I can’t fast forward but when the tv show is or when commercials come up, I can!! The power is all in my hands! Take that u advertisers! I’m not watching yr commercials, neh nanny poo poo! But if u put it online, like, on blogs, I will! =p

Now if you’ve never subscribed to Starhub Cable TV before and you must think that such efficient service and lovely dovey must come with a hefty price right? WRONG! I got mine at

50% discount!

 

HALF PRICE!  

And service charge, installation fees and rental of the set top box?

ALL WAIVED!

FREEEEEEEEEE!

免费!

Kosong!

Going to the service centre won’t even

get you such a good deal lor!

So if you want to enjoy such unbelievable cheap and good service, or u simply need to find out more, just give

 

this handsome guy, Alvin, a call at 

94521900!

During godly hours of course! Ideally between 1.30 to 10pm! He’s single btw! =p My apologies guys, he’s not gay… And cougars? Sorry, I don’t think you are his type either.

And being my blog reader comes with it, hem hem, privileges, tell Alvin that you saw this advertisement on my blog and he’ll throw in a free channel of your choice like HBO, Star Movies, etc, for 6 mths!

Now if you may excuse me, I need to go make some love…

 With Horatio!

He’s almost God-like in CSI Miami lor! Even when the villains point a gun at him, he's still so calm and cool one!

Let me know if Alvin is like that too

when he’s serving you k!! =) 

P.S: To all my readers from Malaysia, Brunei, Japan, Australia, USA and more, thanks for the support! It's so encouraging to know that u want to read my blog! And for those stuck in Europe due to the Icelandic volcano ash? I've heard much about your plight though I'm here in tiny S'pore! May the ashes clear up sooon so your travel plans won't be affected anymore! Xoxo!

If my boyfriend likes it, he should put a ring on it! And... the next Miss Singapore Universe to be!

I’m counting down to 16 April cos that’s my boyfriend’s final day in SMU!  Hopefully he will be employed very soon and start earning a decent $2.5 to $3k every month… then… we can get married earlier! Tee hee!



I’ve always wanted to formally tell the world about him… he’s really a very talented man. He does web designing, graphic design and video editing. He also aced his Computing in JC and is a programming genius! I tell you, whenever his project mates dunno how to program, he’ll be the man they count on! Just last year, the iPhone application that he and his project mates wrote won some Stand Chart award, $2k per person!

 The hottest model at Fashion In The Sky, woo hoo!

On top of his many talents, he’s a very, very nice guy. And that is also both his greatest strength and his greatest weakness. People, like myself (HAHA), are inclined towards taking him for granted. I can’t even tell you the countless times that business owners approached him for video editing, design, etc, ask for discounts and he agrees to them! I’m usually not very happy when he does that. :) Hello, my future wedding is at stake! And not to mention the 2 words, “Spoil market!”


I have a secret desire for him to transfer to my zone! Oops! It’s not a secret anymore, *poses with hand on mouth*! I know he’ll have so much fun and have a great time here and…. we could really benefit from his many talents! Tooooo many people marrying out of my zone already, it’s time for people to marry in for a change! And I certainly don’t mind being the history maker! Hiak hiak hiak! Shout out to Vanessa Wong: Pls don’t leave DT zone! Ask JX to come! Hahaha!



And yes, back to the topic on marriage… Time to talk about my dream… “I WANT TO HAVE A BOYFRIENDDDDD… I WANT TO GET MARRIED!!!!!!! I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN!!!” Hahahahhaha. Kidding!


The best wedding is not one you can pay yourself, it's the best one when everything is sponsored! Just like Xiaxue's!

See the place so atas one. And finally I see her father.... how come Xiaxue talks about her mum on her blog but not her dad? Hmmm... Photo from http://demoments.sg/.

I saw some very ingenious wedding gowns online.. they come with POCKETS! Lazy to credit the sources so pardon me!

 Sort of a androgynous, elegant look?

It’ll be so fabulous! I’ll be able to keep my mobile phone with me and do real time tweeting! I can also answer phone calls from ignorant guests who can’t find the wedding venue! No, pls don’t call me on my wedding day, I’ll be terribly busy and I'll go mad if ten people starts calling me and asking which floor, how to come, etc! I will give good directions on my wedding invitations no worries and most likely Aaron will be the one designing it! *wide grin*

 I think Janet would love this. :) She likes ribbons. :)

Tissue papers in the pocket will also be a must! In case I tear after saying my vows, which I think, I’m very capable of considering how I view marriage as the day I start a family filled with warmth and happiness! And…. I HAD BETTER NOT SNEEZE ON MY WEDDING DAY, GAWD, THAT WOULD BE SO UNGLAM AND EMBARASSING! *AH CHOO!!!*

 I can't wear this, my legs are too ugly to be seen!

I have the boobs to pull this off! Hehehe!

That said,  I don’t think such wedding gowns will be cheap… BUT, it’s free to dream! =)


Annabel was so kind, she was talking on FB about her experience in a gym toilet where some aunties were discussing about how to satisfy their husbands….
 

My relatives have neverrrr in a million years praised me like that before! Lol.

For those that don’t know who Annabel is, she won the Most Gorgeous Female 2009! She also kindly modeled for us at FITS. We were in the same School of Theology batch in 2008. I’ve never met another like her, gorgeous yet humble, smart and yet so willing to volunteer herself, sophisticated, friendly and ever so encouraging!  

 That million dollar smile...

She’s also one of the finalists in Miss Singapore Universe 2010! No, not the Ris Low one, that’s Miss World Singapore! I’m definitely rooting for you to win girl! Check out the RazorTV interview she did a few months back!


[Video removed cos stupid RazorTV's video are all automatically played, very annoying I know, prob to hike up their poor viewership (I was paid money to do a focus group with regards to online video channels, Razor TV in particular, I would know!), even my genius programmer bf can't make it NOT play auto. But u can still watch it by clicking here! Yes, I still love you Annabel! Go girl go! :)]


Soooooo charming right!? =) Annabel, maybe you should be the next senior pst of CHC, u fit all the criteria - good-looking, 25 yrs old, smart, anointed, contemporary… Hahaha, kidding lah! =D Following yr blog, love your entries, keep em’ coming! Xoxo!

You've been a very bad girl. A very very bad, bad girl Wen Wen!

I shall tone this down because my friends have kindly warned me about how raw anger leads to folly and so this is my attempt to bring a message across without cursing and swearing. She is definitely entitled to her own opinions, no doubt about that, and so am I, thank you very much.



FYI, I really like her singing. She was one of the finalists that almost made it into the Top 24 of the last Singapore Idol. Yes, the one that fell down the staircase on National TV after she found out that she didn't make the cut. Not that most of us can remember anyway! =)




  

 

WOW, SO SMART. =)

 

  

OH WOW, the analysis that Maressa made is so factual and accurate! Please log in to your Facebook and read all about the wonderful article! All this nonsense shit about Jack Neo is nothing but a "set up", it's actually all fake so let's rejoice! Woo hoo!! *pops champagne*

I'm amazed that the journalists and the editors were so intelligent to spend hours and hours writing about Jack Neo, waiting outside his house just hoping to get a scoop when it's all but a set up! Aiyo, Straits Times, how could you be so gullible to fall into Jack Neo's trap!? I thought you were smarter than that! I thought you could be "trusted"!

And and.... I'm so astounded that my pastor, who just won the Young Global Leader Award, actually bothered to take time out of his packed schedule to counsel Jack and Irene when all these were simply nothing but Jack's attempt to create more publicity for himself! Pastor, how could you win the YGL award and be a top scholar when you're actually so dumb!?

And Foyce, OH MY GAWD FOYCE, YOU WENT TO LODGE A POLICE REPORT AGAINST JACK FOR HARASSING YOU?  Oh no....................... you do know that making a false police report can end you up in jail? Say bye bye to your singing career! *pricks the bubble*

 

I merely typed 2 paragraphs and you know what she replied? =)

*Turns to 5-yr-old cousin*,

"What happens when you don't like what you're seeing on the newspapers boy?" 

"Flip to the next page jie jie!"

"And what would you do when you don't like the news you're reading online?"

"Oh, I just close the browser jie jie or don't read lor. Or go play my Pet Society!

No point getting irritated over it mah. =) "

" Wow di di, you are so incredibly mature and smart for your age! =) "

No. 1 - You can CHOOSE what you want to put "in your face." It's entirely up to you. If you're damn irritated with it, common sense tells you that if you want to be angry, you should be angry with who? The journalists who wrote the articles of course. They were the ones who wanted to write about it, partly because they want to sell more newspapers. If not, why don't you call the boss of Straits Times a "leech"?  Kind of a double standard don't you think? =)

No. 2 - Oh wow, I insulted you when I didn't even specifically say that you were a naysayer! I was talking about naysayers in general, Oops! I guess you feeling insulted must mean that you really acknowledge yourself as one! =) 

Sorry I stepped on your toes Maressa! Honey Bee to Lady Wen:
"You've been a very bad girl. 
A very very bad, bad girl Wen Wen!"

Wait there's more!

No. 3 - The movie hasn't even come out and she's already infuriated. Wait till the movie comes out, if it really does, she's gonna go boomz! No one, not even Jack Neo himself knows whether he will definitely make a movie out of this whole thing yet. It's just an idea! And look at her very friendly reaction! =) She "honestly has no need to be angry" at all indeed! *round of applause* And... What kind of legacy is she leaving behind for her kids when they read this blog entry 20 years later? An awesome one! About how she hated someone and called him names who is completely unrelated to her and has done her no wrong!




No. 4 - Movie goers who would want to watch his movie are forced against their own wills to go! Oh man, Jack, how could you force me to watch your movies for so many years!? So incredibly low class you know! Stop smoking people to go watch your movies already! I will tell all my friends to boycott your movies! Especially the one that will be related to yr affair! Shame on you! And... throw away your Cultural Medallion Award pls! It means nothing to Maressa! You know why? Cos she wants to turn a blind eye to any of the good in this whole thing, only because she chose to. =)

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Before a particular friend accuses me of being "negative" on my blog , here are in my opinion THE BEST photos taken at Fashion In The Sky by a photographer that goes by the name of Watii, I dunno who she is but just so you know, they're are not taken by me! 

Serena Grace, my fave model! Just look at that pretty face of hers!

 Sweet Becky darling. Now you can't untag yourself anymore! Muahaha. =p

Love the "damsel in distress" look on Clara!

 

Megan is chio to the max!

A very confident Weini!

Janet, fierce! *paws up*

And are you ready for D best FITS photo of all the gazillion photos that were taken?

 *drumroll pls!*

TADA!

 

A perfect FIT for the theme! 

Loves to the photographer!!! Whoever you are! =)

And please don't become famous, get into a scandal and then use it to create art in the future alright!? It's gonna infuriate some itchy pussys. Yeah, I mean the Pussycat Dolls.

 

Jack Neo’s Confession & Gaga’s Latest Crazyyy Video!

I tweeted Jack Neo my blog add on Wed & Thurs and he might have been inspired after reading it because…. he had just openly shared a confession on his blog today! =p Hahaha. I translated it into English for my non-Mandarin speaking blog readers as well as for those who suck in Chinese! Haha, I’m not saying that mine is perfect! =p

Confession  告白

I am very sorry for all the things that I have done. 我对我所做的一切感到非常抱歉。


I have a good wife and a happy family but I did not treasure it, causing myself to land in such a situation today.   我有一个好太太和幸福的家庭，但我却没有好好珍惜，搞到今天这个下场。


My betrayal had deeply hurt my wife and children, and I am regretfully sorry and sorrowful. The thing that touches me the most is that my wife, in her most painful moment, grit her teeth and chose to forgive me and I am very thankful for her graciousness and love towards me. By not leaving and  choosing to cling unto me, she had allowed me to keep our family intact. 我的背叛，深深伤害了老婆也深深伤害了孩子的心，我非常的抱歉惭愧和难过，最令我感动的是，老婆在她最痛的时候，仍然咬紧牙根，选择了原谅我，我很感恩她的宽容和爱，因为她的不离不弃，让我保住了我们家的完整。


After understanding the disappointment felt by my parents, siblings, as well as friends, old schoolmates and relatives who have trusted in me, fans and movie buffs who have supported me, I really feel extremely ashamed. I have let everyone down and brought it upon myself. 至于我的父母和兄弟姐妹，还有一路来信任我的亲戚朋友老同学和风雨不改支持我的影迷粉丝，了解他们对我的失望之后，我真的感到无地自容。我辜负了大家，咎由自取。


An extra-martial relationship is a family’s personal affair and many have told me that as long as my wife and family forgives me, it already enough; that I do not need to care about anything else. But to ponder over it, for the past twenty over years, all of you had followed and grew up together with my television programs and movies; were familiar with and caring towards me, giving me your unreserved support and encouragement, how can I treat all of you as outsiders? Hence, my wish is that I may receive your forgiveness as well. 婚外情是家事，很多人也告诉我，只要老婆家人原谅就足够了，其他一概不必理会。但是想想，过去二十几年来，你们跟着我的电视和电影作品一起成长，如此的熟悉我关心我，对我毫无保留的信任和支持，我怎能把你们也当外人呢？所以能获得你们的原谅也是我的愿望。


There is a saying, that ‘one will reap whatever they sow’. In the past, I’ve often used this line in scripts to strengthen the plots in my movies; little did I know that this time, the saying came true in my own life. ‘What man are doing, heaven is watching’, don’t ever think that retribution is not real and don’t ever think that one can hide in the dark to do evil things and “heaven” won’t see it. My plight had proved just that.  有一句话说:「人种的是什么，收的也是什么。」以前经常用这句话来当台词强化情节，没想到这次竟然应验在自己的身上，“人在做，天在看”， 千万不要不相信报应，也千万不要以为躲在黑暗的地方做坏事“天”就看不到，我的下场足以证明。

This saga to me, is a very painful, as well as a very valuable awakening, allowing me to always remember the importance of cherishing my wife and family because they are life’s most precious treasure. 这件事对我来说，是一个非常痛苦但也是非常珍贵的醒悟。让我牢牢记住，好好珍惜太太和家人的重要，因为他们是你人生中最宝贵的宝藏。


Irene and I will continue to work hard to cultivate a successful and fulfilled marriage. I will also be very cautious of my words, actions and the way I treat all women, preventing misunderstandings from arising; and to be even more faithful to my wife, putting my family as a top priority. 美凤和我会一起继续努力，经营成功和美满的婚姻，我也会更加小心自己的言行举止和对待所有女生的方式，避免引起误会，也要对老婆更加的忠心，一切以家庭为主。

There is no way to turn back time and eradicate the wrongs that I have done. I am a human being that makes mistakes. Though I have admitted my misgivings from the onset, I would still like to plead that all of you can forgive me, and to give me a second chance. 我犯的错已经回不了头，我是一个凡人，会犯错，虽然我在第一时间已经承认了我的过错，但是对于关心我的人，我还是要在一次的祈求你们的原谅，给我一次重生的机会。


Although my wife and children had forgiven me, our relationship will still take some time to mend. I would also like to specially thank the people who have loved, encouraged and supported me during this period. 虽然老婆孩子已经原谅了我，但是，这段关系还是需要一些时间医治，我也要特别感谢在这期间，爱我鼓励我和支持我的朋友们。


I strongly believe that our Lord Jesus will not abandon me in my hour of difficulty. 我深信，主耶稣不会在苦难的时候离我而去的。



He won’t Jack… when everyone else fails you or when you fail everyone else… only God will not tui bu qi ni (let you down). :) I hope I get to see you and your family happier and closer than ever before! My own family is still far from the joy and happiness that you were talking about! I guess my time will come! :)


Btw, some Singaporeans are saying that Jack's wife shouldn't forgive him and that she's weak in doing so, etc. I think some may think that forgiving someone means you condone his or her actions? It's not true. Forgiving someone means acknowledging the hurt that the person have caused you but no longer holding onto a grudge against them. You forgiving someone is an act of graciousness and nobility on your own part but that does not equate to saying that what the person did was okay. Irene and the children may have forgiven Jack but he still has to change his ways and pay a price to regain their trust and to rebuild their relationship. Not to mention the public scrutiny and the over-zealous media that he had to endure. That was him reaping what he had sowed.



To end off again, here is the latest music video from Lady Gaga, Telephone! Just premiered today! It’s crazy!! If you are a judgmental, conservative and faint-hearted Christian, I mean, person, I beseech you to do yourself a favor and not watch it! *sticks out tongue* Hahaha! Watch out for what the prison wardens said after throwing her into jail, loves it! Hahaha! It's a sequel to her Paparazzi video btw!

Life’s A Movie… Only Real

I woke up at 10 plus and the 1st thing I did was to go to Twitter & behold! This @cnalatest tweet appeared before my eyes, "Neo's wife, Irene fainted after the news conference and the director and staff screamed at the media who swamped to the stage to take photos."

Firstly, I’m really surprised that a press conference was held so quickly! Tang Wing Fai, Jack’s manager, said that Jack will “ tell all … after the dust has settled” in this Straits Times article published on Monday. 3 days later, has the dust settled? I’m guessing Jack took a step of faith to do that even before the dust has really settled, especially when he and his wife have now reconciled.


In my blog post yst I said,‘I think that Jack shouldn’t wait till the dust has settled before speaking out, he should do it now and do it fast because the truth will set people free. Or else, the public will just keep speculating about the affairs and tian you jia chu or women that were linked to Jack Neo in the past would just keep spilling the beans. Am I right to think this way, Pastor Tan?’



I took the liberality to tweet the post link to Pst Tan becos I wanted him to know that I was writing about him and to correct the facts if they’re wrong. I don’t know if he read it since he’s a really really busy man holding many portfolios – the second man in-charged of SEA’s largest church, founder of CityCare, a humanitarian organization; and is also a father of 4 young children.



But just a few hours after I published the entry and tweeted him, I found some links that said Jack will hold a press conf the day after. Could it be that Pst Tan, after reading my blog entry, suggested to Jack that he should hold a press conf quickly? I can only imagine.

ST PHOTO: DESMOND LIM

I think that the press conference wasn’t really a press conference because both Jack and Irene are still emotionally distraught and could not reveal much. It had ended in just less than 5 mins. Read about it here.



Irene had almost fainted and the photographers rushed forward to snap pics and Jack Neo shouted at them to get away. Very, very dramatic right!? But this is not a scene from a movie, it happened in real life.
 

                    


I just watched the clip and I almost teared. The photographers CANNOT MAKE IT... Shoot one million times since the moment they stepped in also cannot get good photos??? Both of them were talking also didn't pause but keep shooting? Not even a least bit sensitive to how Irene feels? She's not a celebrity leh, hello. 1st time in front of so many photographers, sure nervous one. She fell down then they still keep pushing to come forward??? Wa liao, angry.


Saw Jimmy, our church's main security in-charged in the clip. He tweeted this, "Getting breaking news at the expense of your humanity makes you less human... Have been doing this for 6 years. I can handle thieves, sex predators, hostiles... But those w/o conscience? It's my 1st time..."


I loved how Jack's staff or friend, the actor, screamed at the photographers to scram. They totally deserved it. If it were me, I would do the same!



I guess I got my answer to this question, “ Am I right to think this way, Pastor Tan?” I wasn’t right, I was wrong. Both Jack and his wife are too emotionally distraught to handle the media… The wounds will take some time to heal. Jack did not tell all about his affairs and I hope that you reading this would not demand it as well.



Finally, Straits Times has revealed which church Jack is attending in this online article and in today’s papers. Someone from my church, I wonder who, told the papers, 'We are counseling them to reconcile and rebuild their marriage. Irene has forgiven Jack and they are together, spending quality time and going through a process of healing. For now, the church has advised Neo 'to put rebuilding his marriage as his top priority'.
 

That my friends, is the difference between 
Jack Neo’s scandal and Tiger Wood’s.
 

I am very very very amazed at Irene’s ability to forgive Jack. If I were to put myself in her situation, I don’t think I’ll be able to forgive him so quickly or even see him eye to eye ever again. Married women out that, what are your opinions? If your husband cheats on you, will you forgive him? If the affair was played out in public and it’s not just one woman but several of them, will you forgive him? Jack is right, he is one blessed man to have such a gracious wife. I salute them. 

More than 120 people had read my blog yst but 99% chose to be silent about it and I do not know why. The one comment that didn’t prove me wrong about Singaporeans is from this person who also called the models of Fashion In The Sky short and ugly, “ I hate Jack Neo. Disgraceful piece of human being.” Sigh, you are gonna get into a lot of trouble in the future if you continue being so critical girl. :(



Fellow City Harvesters reading this, I do not know what you are thinking at this moment except for the few that responded but I hope that you of all people, will not be the one to cast a stone at Jack. He’s not just a famous movie director that you know anymore; he is your fellow brother-in-Christ that belongs in the same church as you, so does his wife and his children. If there is anything the family needs now, it is our earnest prayers.



To end off, the editor of City News Weekly, Theresa Tan, had direct msged me on Twitter to say that she had read my blog and to look out for an article this weekend!  Yay I love my church! =) I hope the article however, will tell me something that I will not be able to read on newspapers anywhere else. That’s the purpose of news isn’t it? It has to be fresh and most importantly, it has to be real. But to do it like the way the photographers did in the clip? Completely unnecessary.