A Heavy Heart

It would have been a great day.


I am burdened by what is happening in my life and by what I see/read/know.


At the end of the day, a stranger's words/actions doesn't really hurt you. It is the words and actions of those you care and matter the most that do. Those whom you think they won't treat you this way when you are trying very hard to make things work and be nice but they do. And it stings... like a snake's bite.


Will I overlook the wounds and the damage done and just forgive and forget? Or will I choose to distant myself from those that I care a lot for but don't reciprocate that care and learn to protect myself instead?


I lie at the crossroads. What I choose to do in the next few weeks or months will significantly alter my life.


Which path will I take?


What kind of person will I become?


Will I become cold or will the warmth of my heart continue to burn?


Will I become the very person that I don't wish to be in the 1st place?


Will I live a fruitful life and be a blessing?


Who will Wendy become?


One thing is for sure, I can't accomplish it by my own human strength.


It is too weak. I, am too weak.


It's about time I get down on my knees...

I Love My BFF!

 

I think you guys are looking forward to an update about my boyfriend and I!

 

Before I do I just wanna say that I’m truly blessed to have friends who stand by me, who give me good advice and love me. :) After unpleasant things happen, I now know who my true friends are whom I can have friendships for life with.

 

Many smses came and I am grateful, you know who you are. It’s nice to know that friends like you care enough to drop me a msg just to see how I am doing. *touched* And sorry if I didn’t reply some cos I was probably just too emotional and needed some time to chill! And I’m down to only 500 free smses a mth now so tweet or call me instead if u can! :)

 

To Emily, thanks for sharing yr experience with yr bf to help me get perspective and for being there when I was afraid to take the step to call him and talk things out!

 

To Xiu, I got yr hug from Washington DC! Am so touched. I missed u! Hope u are doing great! *hugs back*

 

To Sean & Elaine, thanks for the help the last time as a couple who really wishes Aaron and I stay together. May God bless your imminent marriage. :) I still dunno whether I can help out yet!

 

To Zoe, my dearest cg leader, thanks for yr smses and the talk we had. I’m so blessed to have an understanding leader like you who is always one step ahead of me in life. Am simply jumping for joy and counting down to yr Fairytale wedding on 4th July!

 

To Alvin and Catherine, thanks for the words of encouragement and advice that u guys gave us. I think Aaron is very blessed to have you as his leaders too! 10 years of dating must have been tough but you guys went through it, despite the differences… amazing. CONGRATULATIONS on the engagement!! :)) Yippee!

 

Okay now is the part when I wonder when issit gonna be my turn! Hahaha! Nahhhh, shalll spare my bf the presssuuureeeee.

 

To my dearest bf, I know many times our relationship can turn out like that:

 

  Dunno why u still can smile sometimes!

 

 

And I scare you. (HAHA)

 

But spending the last 2 days with you have made me realize that we really do love each other despite our difference in personalities and we’re not gonna throw away the last 1.5 years we shared together just like that.

 

Simply watching a show with you on yr laptop or mine and watch you laugh makes me happy…Thanks for filling my love tank! I think it has 10,000 love units now. :)

 

I’m sorry for all the times that I’ve bruised your ego. I’m sorry for the things that I had said that I should know better not to say.

 

I fell in love with you because you are smart, knowledgeable, patient, cute and handsome. Sometimes my anger and frustrations get the better of me… but at the end of the day, I know I still want to be by your side and go through life together with you. (Unless you choose not be cute and smart anymore! Hehe!)

 

I know we have a bright future together because we are both committed to love and to trust and respect each other like what Alvin has taught us.

 

God is teaching us to have mercy and I believe we have passed the test this time round.

 

I know you may not be good in words, but I will be patient to wait for the day that you will know what to say and what to do; to wait for you to draw closer to God and bring us forward.

 

But for now, we are each other’s BFF, so we’re gonna give each other time and space to chill and grow at our own pace.

 

I love my bfffff! =D

 

So bff, shoud I catch the bouquet at Zoe’s wedding? Should I should should I!? KIDDING. =p

 

Congratulations to the start of your working life officially on Friday!! I hope yr collegues will treat you well and no gals hotter than me will hit on u! Hahaha!

 

Say hello to your new Web Designer pple! Not just freelancing anymore. So proud of you baby! Xoxo. (Seeeee I know how to do this brushing ego stuff! =D)

 

And I love you dear friends! Thanks so much for being my life, I certainly can’t do life without you guys in it. You are all one of God’s greatest gift to me.

 

*BIG SQUISHY HUGS from Ms.Huggable Lady Wen!* =p

I Was

 

I am a believer.

 

I believe in love, I believe in marriage and in a “happily ever after” and having the happiness and warmth of family.

 

And so I fight; I get disappointed and upset but I pick myself up time and time again telling myself if I stick around for just a little longer, things will start to change and get better.

 

I get really hurt but I hung on tight to my dream, I didn’t give up.

 

But on a day like this when I get so tired of fighting and believing, the words of affirmation that I need are nowhere to be found.

 

No one is holding my hands, looking into my eyes and telling me that, “Everything is gonna be okay.”

 

When I stopped believing, I thought he wouldn’t. I hoped he would tell me to give it one more try. But he isn’t.

 

I thought he would be a believer when I’m losing my ability to believe. But his lack of action just tells me that he is less of a believer than I am.

 

Action or the lack of it just speaks so loud. It’s deafening.

 

Where is he just when you needed him to stand up like a man and quickly do so some damage control? Where is that determination to make things happy and good again that you wished he had when you didn’t?

 

No sms, no phonecall, no tweets, no writing on yr FB wall, no private msg, no email, nothing.

 

And so, after all tissue papers and the hours of hours of waiting for nothing, I tell myself, “That’s it. I can’t go on like this anymore.”

 

Everything was but just a dream. The reality of it eludes me to the point where I don’t believe it anymore.

 

It’s all too late.

 

Now, I was a believer. And I was a really determined believer. 

 

I was.

Toy Story 3 The Great Escape!

Toy Story is back again! In this 3rd installment, Andy the owner is leaving for college… so what lies the fate of Woody, Buzz and the rest of the toys?

And guess what, In this latest creation from Disney Pixar, there are 14 new characters! 

And here are some of my favorites! They are soooooooo cute okay!! 

Very huggable!!!

OMG, Lots-O’-Huggin’ Bear!?? Everyone who knows me knows that I love getting hugged and hugging pple! I think Lots-O’-Huggin’ Bear is just like me! Hahaha. And it’s even quite pinkish in color!

Awwwww….

Isn’t that about the cutest unicorn u’ve ever seen!? And just look at that pair of the most un-disgusting & adorable nostrils in the world! <3 <3 =D

 “Hello hello baby u called? I can’t hear a thing!”

Looks familiar doesn’t it!? This looks like one of the telephone toys I had when I was a kid! But now that I’m older, I guess I can wear it on my head like Lady Gaga did in ‘Telephone’! HAHA!

Here’s the trailer!

The scene where Ken met Barbie must be my favorite moment in the trailer! My heart fluttered and it reminded me of the moment when my bf and I had first looked at each other in the eyes and we had the “sparkle”! Hehe. The expression on his face when he first set eyes on Barbie? Priceless! 


Can’t wait to see the actual movieeee! You can catch Toy Story 3 Movie starting from 17^th June 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!


Xoxo!

Ale-alejandro Ale-alejandro!

The world premiere of Gaga’s latest video, Alejandro!

It’s sick, but damn, it’s so artistic!

I love the setting! The imagery is so strong! The snow, the heart, the “Nazis”.

Love the widow headdress and the red latex nun suit!

And I think Gaga just made “mushroom hair” trendy! Lol.

Don’t have to try and understand the whole thing… I don’t! Only Gaga and probably the producer Steven Klein do!

But if you really want to know what’s going on in Gaga’s universe, this is what she said on her recent interview on Larry King Live bout the video: “homoerotic military theme”…”a celebration of my love and appreciation for the gay community, my admiration of their bravery, their love for one another and their courage in their relationships.”



“It’s all about where I’m from and love of theater and love of music and love of the lie in art, and Steven really knows and understands that…So we’re making a beautiful video, and I’m so excited.”




She adds, “[It's about the] purity of my friendships with my gay friends, and how I’ve been unable to find that with a straight man in my life. It’s a celebration and an admiration of gay love—it confesses my envy of the courage and bravery they require to be together. In the video I’m pining for the love of my gay friends—but they just don’t want me to be with them.”

You would never had figured that out without her explanation right!? I thought the dead guy in the coffin was symbolic of Alexander McQueen or sumthin’!

And see, no advertising of any products in this vid!

Gaga is in a league of her own, and we’re all just trying to play catch up.

What do I know? The MEN must HURT when they’re smashed onto the floor like that by other men! =D I think that’s symbolic of sex change, I think. :)

Tell me what you think! Comments!