Lady Wen

2010 - 2011 in Retrospect & Hallo 2012!

2012-01-19T18:06:00.009+08:00

What better way to kick start 2012 than with a new blog skin that is wayyy overdue! I got tired of waiting for the designer bf so I played around with blogger template and viola! Still need some of his expertise to tweak it to perfection though. =D

Looking back, 2010 was a real tumultuous year for me. Huge squabble with relatives led me to hit rock bottom and I even became suicidal. It took me a good couple of months to recover and bury the hatchet.

What followed was a disintegration of a friendship I once treasured. In my love life, my relationship with Aaron was shaky and I was on the brink of giving up.

There were many moments of darkness and I danced in it as much as I could. Somehow, there was still a great fighting spirit in me and a hope that light is at the end of the tunnel. (Read post here.)

I was getting nowhere in my previous job, had barely enough money for food on some days and were months behind my bills. I really wanted a change and sent countless applications to companies late that year in hope of a better life:

This was just half the number of applications I sent. I was so desperate I applied for internships and even a position on board a cruise ship which would take me away for six months... I attended a few interviews but to no avail and felt jaded.

1st day of 2011 came and I was completely taken aback by the news which broke that fateful day. My zone pastor was leaving and starting a new church. I didn't see it coming and struggled for a few weeks to come to a decision - to follow him or to stay in the church which I thought I would be in till the day I die. (Read post here.)

I decided to leave and it turned out to be one of the best decisions I made in 2011, thank God! (Read posts here, here & here!)

And honestly, leaving was one of the main factors that led to the improvement of my relationship with Aaron. Because he no longer had a gf that constantly went: "Why you don't pray and read bible? How you lead me like that? You like that also can be PCGL ah? Then I can be CGL lo!" LOLOL.

I was set free from religion and never felt more at peace with myself and with God.

Back to my job hunting, an opportunity came knocking in early 2011 to teach IT lessons at a primary school near where I was staying and I took it up despite it being a half day part-time position with peanuts pay and no prospects. Desperate times called for desperate measures.

The children were adorable and I enjoyed teaching them but there were many hours where I had nothing to do and was simply too bored. So bored I played an April Fool's prank on FB about my marital status. (Read post here.) Lame rite?

Finally in July 2011, I quit! I felt a sense of release and no longer had to drag my feet to work every morning. I saw this on FB which only reaffirmed my decision:


My hot pink version of it. =D

God was true to His word and blessed me beyond that which I had imagined... Things started to look up in the latter part of 2011.

The 1-room rental flat Aaron and I applied for in mid-2010 just before his graduation came in July. The best parts were that we got a very good location near Lavendar mrt which is just less than 30 mins travelling time to his workplace and the rental & conservancy charges amounted to only fifty bucks a month which meant huge savings for me. :)

I moved in on 4th September 2011 and finally finally had a space I could call my own after 5 years of living under relatives' roofs! Super duper happy.

Friends came on Xmas Eve! :)

We played Saboteur, watched tv and chilled!

July was also the month where I started on a diet program and successfully shed off a few extra kilos and inches off my waist. Weeee! Am still a work in progress though! =D

Went to interview for my dream job the 2nd time in August. A dream I had since I was 16 which died over the years and got resurrected. And the most surreal part? I actually got it.

Some days I wished I had slimmed down earlier and joined younger but if not for all the setbacks and drama I experienced in those two years after graduation, I wouldn't have the maturity required of me. I needed those bad experiences which helped me grow into a better and wiser person. (School of Hard Knocks!)

And if I had joined years earlier, Aaron and I probably would not have met and even if we did, our relationship would not have the luxury of time it took to grow and stabilize. All things happened for a good reason and I only have God to thank for His perfect timing.

In the midst of learning what my new job entails, I cracked in the first week from the stress and the expectations of me. For those who watch Glee, I always resonated with Rachel Berry but started to feel like a Mercedes instead in a sea of Rachel Berrys and a few Santanas! Self-doubt crept in. For moments I thought to myself that I might not make it.

But my friends believed in me and that made me feel really encouraged. Gaga's Marry The Night became my new anthem. I gritted my teeth and held on.

Two weeks ago I finally passed the initial phase of my career with a clean slate which is such a miracle for someone like me. I was this close to getting a permanent black mark. What grace!

So far it has been good and I'm treasuring every moment of it. Because fulfilling this dream did not come easy, I cherish it even more. It's not the end but only the beginning!

After two years of ups & downs I can finally declare that I'm no longer a lost fresh grad. Friends reading this who still feel like one, take heart! Your time is just round that corner! You got to believe that good things are coming your way!

2012 will be a year where I see myself doing more of things I love, thanks to the flexibility of time I enjoy. Definitely expect many more blog posts from me this year! ;)

I'm learning German online and reigniting my interest in dancing by going for Hip Hop classes in Feb! Exciting!!

It is highly possible that 2012 will be the year I'm getting the driving license that I've been procrastinating for years cos I'll finally have the mean$ to do so in a few months!

This year will also be the year I lose my single status! Lol.

It's gonna be an awesome year so let's ride this journey together! ♥

The sky is the limit! :)

Sings: I'm gonna marry the night. I'm not gonna cry anymore. I'm gonna marry the night, leave nothing on these streets to explore! Ma ma ma marry, ma ma ma marry! =D

Rubbing Shoulders with Velda, Daniel Ong & Dr. Yaacob Ibrahim on World Kindness Day

2011-11-21T23:59:00.006+08:00

So show off rite my title!? Need to catch your attention then you will read mah lol! =P I'm very sleeepy now so let the pictures do the talking!

All changed and ready!

With my fave blogger friends, Charlene & Stephen!

And met emo rocker a.k.a Everscar!

Love his hair color! And how 17-year-old nowadays can afford a DSLR just by working part time is a mystery to me. God, what was I doing when I was seventeeen?

Guess who's the lady behind me on the right!? =D

Look what I found in the goodie bag? Food for thought eh? =D

I was part of a press release, hehe!

Look at the throngs and throngs of volunteers!

Tada... Velda was nice! I have 3 Love Bonito outfits to date! =D

Kind of cool to be on the same stage with Dr. Yaacob Ibrahim, even if it's just for a few minutes!


Boom!

Giving out daisies to strangers on Orchard Road was kind of cool! Feel slightly irritated by those who didn't want to accept though... If someone shows kindness to you... accept it people! :) A father of a family said to me when I was giving him a daisy, "But I'm not very kind." I said, "Haha nvm, you'll be kinder." =D

To a kinder world! ♥

A Week in The Life of A Wannabe

2011-10-12T03:58:00.000+08:00

Monday to Friday:

3 "Unforgivable Sins":

1) "You have a face that looks very fierce when you don't smile." In other words? Yeah, those 2 hokkien words.

2) "I'm very disappointed with you. If you continue like this I can tell you this is not the right fit for you."

3) "Someone complained you didn't greet him. No situational awareness."

"You got to learn and you got to learn fast. One more time and I will send you for disciplinary action."

Message? It's ALL ABOUT your PERFORMANCE, PERFORMANCE and PERFORMANCE.

In the train, bus, shopping area? Stares, stares and more stares.

Saturday 5 to 7pm:"It's NOT about your performance, achievements & your own human efforts. It's all about Jesus."(so touched, *tears*. Oh ya, *tweets* too.)

Then in a matter of minutes.... SNAP! Back to "reality"!

7.10pm: "It's about your attitude." " Do this, do that."Underlying message?

8 to 10pm:"Wendy, dun eat this, dun eat that, it's for your own good!"Underlying message?

Sunday:

"If you don't change to auspicious date I'm not coming for yr wedding!"

"Why you eat so little!? Why are you so thin? Your face so green. Eat more!" - -_-'''

Conclusion? No one is perfect, only God is, which is why He is not calculative with me about my performance. If I can be with him and him only it'll be utopia, a paradise and I never would want to come back. (Yeah I know, creepy thoughts of living my life here shorter slips in during such high stress times.)

It'll be nothing short of a miracle if I can survive till 6 Jan & still be saint (crazy is good cos crazy pple change the world but not mad. =X), stay true to myself & not go back to the old ways of being performance-based/pressured not just on me but everyone around me. I think I will be so happy tears will well up in my eyes. And even happier when I look at my bank acct a month or two later!

'I've had enough, this is my prayer, that I'll die living just as free as my (LET DOWN) hair! =D I've had enough, I'm not a freak, I'm just trying to stay cool on the streets.' - Lady Gaga & Lady Wen <3

Dr. Yonggi Cho's Comment on the Japanese, $25 Million Fraud Investigation and Meeting Pastor Kong & Sun!

2011-09-23T08:51:00.006+08:00

Woke up yesterday to this shocking news:

(Source: Straits Times)

When I first read a news report in March post-earthquake regarding his comment on the fate of the Japanese, I thought to myself, "Erm, is this article reliable? Did he really say that or did the reporter misquoted him?" (Ha, being a Mass Comm student taught me not to believe everything I read and I also didn't want to believe lah cos I thought of him as a very kind person.)

Fast forward 6 mths later, Straits Times has disproved my suspicion. I remembered being upset if that was really what he said. Mind you, the whole world was mourning with Japan then. Can you imagine how the Japanese must have felt when they hear a South Korean say they deserved the devastating earthquake?

Yet in retrospect, I can understand what possessed Dr. Cho to make such a seemingly unkind comment; my grandma also said something along the lines of the Japanese paying for their past sins (referring to the earthquake) and I don't blame her or Dr. Cho for such prejudiced views towards the Japanese cos they had to go through what I didn't - World War II.

Granny was only a teenager then and her family had to hide in the jungles for fear that the Japanese would capture my great grandfather who was a village head. I think what was most scary was that she had to look like a boy and dress shabbily so that the Japanese soldiers wouldn't rape her.

She is now 84 years old while Dr. Cho is 75 and you know, that's how the older generation talk sometimes - they cannot help themselves as they're very set in their views. I guess the difference is that the latter is very educated and was/is a pastor of the world's largest church, which made his comment that much harder to swallow.

I visited New Life Church in Taipei when I was there for vacation

in June and guess who was preaching?

Mrs. Cho! =) A.k.a Dr. Kim.

Loved their bulletin and envelop btw, so colorful and cheery! Dr. Kim's message was about being happy and rejoicing even in trying circumstances. She shared how she had to learn to overcome really trying circumstances in her life, like when certain people in her church disagrees with certain things, no details mentioned...

Who are these 29 elders and what do they have to gain if this was a baseless accusation done only to smear Dr. Cho?

They must be super long time church members like twenty years kind if not how to become elders and hold leadership positions right? The question on my mind is why would these long time church leaders have the guts to file a civil suit against Dr. Cho if they honestly did not have any substantial evidence to believe so? They are long time church leaders but they actually have no moral integrity? Then how did they even become leaders in the first place? Hmmmmmm........

If this happened in CHC, it'll be like Pst Tan, Derek, Aries, etc. coming together to sue Pst Kong for misuse of funds! Unimaginable and freaking scary rite!

If this was a baseless accusation thrown just so that Dr. Cho and his family would relinquish control of the church... WA LIAO. If I were the senior pst, I would throw them out of church once investigations results are out and let them go find another one. I mean, how could you do this to the man who slogged his entire life to make the church what it is today and betray him like that?

I dunno if that's what Jesus would do in the same circumstance but that is what I would do lol. (I'm obviously not called to be a full-time pastor! =D)

I don't want to speculate why Dr. Cho cannot let go mgmt of the church funds completely etc. but I imagine it must be really hard to... If like him, you've invested 50 yrs of your life into an organization, would u be able to bo chup when you retire? I think that requires a lot of faith, doesn't it? =D

As Aaron and I were leaving New Life's premises, a really good-looking usher chatted with us as he led us to the main exit:

Me: " 我们是新加坡人." (We're Singaporeans.)

The usher: "Oh, 你们是來自城市丰收教会的吗? 能遇见你们真是我的荣幸!" (Are you guys from City Harvest? It's such an honor to meet you!)

Me: *Looks at Aaron* Er......

Aaron: "Oh, 对" (Ya.)

Me: *nervous laughter*

What a tricky question to ans in that few seconds we had! My bf is, I'm not, but he's like so delighted to hear we're from CHC how to tell him I was but left cos my zone pastor started a new church!? I didn't want to shock him lah, hahaha. Later the perfect image of CHC in his mind gets shattered how? 家家有本难念的经! (Each family has its own troubles that are difficult to explain!)

I dreamed about meeting and talking to PK & Sun for years but never had I imagined that when I finally did, it was at a farewell party in Jan for the few of us who were gonna leave. ='(

I got to sit beside Sun! I was so nervous I looked at Jamie, looked at her prawn and then looked at mine and we both smiled sheepishly cos we didn't want to appear unglam in front of them by using our hands! Hahaha.

Sun was everything I thought she'll be - really friendly, down to earth and so very nice and fun to be with. The best part was she remembers who I am. I was the crazy girl who sent her a msg on FB about how excited I was to be going to Gaga's concert in Singapore in 2009. The girl who tweeted her and asked if it takes very long to perfect a song in the studio when she was recording one day. And she replied both. I LOVE HER.

Oh and I realized at the dinner that... PK actually eats! Was surprised he is human just like me cos I can never fast 21 days like him! He even had 2 portions! :) *relieved to know both he and I are normal, hahaha* He can be serious but he can also be funny, he said Sun was so slim she she looked like the skeleton on her top! =D

Before they arrived, Pst Darren asked me to be zai and keep my cool but....

Thanking 'em & saying goodbye with tears in my eyes!

How to be cool when CHC is the church I called home for 8 years and that might be the last time I will ever meet them face to face again? I didn't knoww howwww.

Family portrait! =D

Some friends said they think Sun and I look alike, watcha think!? Skin tone, check. Cheekbones, check. Fringe covers half an eye, check! HAHAHA. Differences are her eyebrow points upwards and her face is so much slimmer! I think if my face was slimmer and if I looked slightly younger I could pass off as their daughter rite!? OMG so buay hia bai hahahaha!

I agree with PK, that people are innocent until proven guilty. In my deepest hearts of heart, I don't believe that Dr. Yonggi Cho is capable of a $25 million fraud and even more so, I don't believe that PK and Sun would intentionally misappropriate CHC's funds after all these years of teaching us integrity, sacrificing their life to build the church only to sabotage it later on.

It took the authorities only 5 months to investigate Ren Ci but it's taking them more than 15 months for CHC. God knows why the government which prides itself to be very efficient is taking so long. I hope they hurry up and release the investigation results already, thirty over thousand pple need to find closure can? :)

No matter the outcome of Dr Cho or CHC's investigation results, I will always remember the fond memories I had in City Harvest (that deserves at least a blog post of its own!) and am eternally grateful! ♥

Chris Medina - What Are Words

2011-09-21T03:55:00.003+08:00

This is one of those special, rare moments when I break into tears upon hearing a song & its story for the 1st time.

Chris Medina and his gf dated for 8 years and they got engaged, but something tragic happened just 2 months before their wedding...

This is his 1st song release since not making into American Idol 2011 Top 24. I'm surprised the video has only 14 million hits; it deserves at least a 100!

I don't even know if I could love anyone as much as he loves her... If you are touched by his unwavering love for his fiancee like I am, you know what to do.

Reminded me of His unconditional love for me... =') Thanks so much for sharing it Alissa!

Bought a Washer for $299, Won A Blackberry Torch for $1!

2011-09-16T23:28:00.495+08:00

I woke up this morning and one of the first few emails I saw was this!

Realized their edm is actually made up of a few pictures, lazy to join 'em tgt!

I needed to buy a washing machine for my new place so I thought what great timing and how nice it would be if I could win the Blackberry Torch at the Anniversary Draw since it's the most expensive prize on the menu! =D

I know nuts bout washing machines so thankfully the salesman was pretty good, knows his stuff well and recommended me to get LG. LIFE's Good! ;p He said the brand is known for household appliances.

Asked him a few questions, compared a few brands and within 15 mins I was like, "Okay buy!" All sales pple dream of meeting clients like that everyday I tell u! Of course it helped that my mom will be paying for it not me heh heh!

Simple-looking LG WFT 6600.

The impressive part is their Turbo Drum Technology:

"In normal washing machines, only impellers are moving. However, in LG's washing machines both the impeller and drum move simultaneously and in opposite directions, like a handwash, creating multiple water whirls and thousand eddies. This delivers a powerful wash that can remove the toughest dirt yet is gently enough on your delicate fabrics."

Originally $345, discounted price at $299, come with 2 years warranty. Bought the Extended Warranty Plus at $149 in case it breaks down after 2 yrs & he waived the delivery & installation charges of $29.90 for me! :)

It's a low end washer afterall, saw many retailing at more than $1500+ kind! Really need so ex so gd one meh? So now my washer is covered for 5 yrs and full replacement on 4th repair, if ever, awesome! Even washing machines need insurance, lolol.

Scribbled my details like mad on all 9 of the lucky draw coupons I got cos it was only mins left to the 9pm draw but they extended it for like 30 mins more, panicked for nothing!


Many more lucky draw items up for grabs over the weekend!

I can't remb the host's name but he was super funny - after the Courts guy (I think he's the VP of that outlet or something) selected a coupon he said, "Wah this person's handwriting like my armpit hair!" I thought, "YES GOT HIGH CHANCE LIAO!" Lolol!

There were about 50 other pple standing around me eagerly anticipating to win too but there can only be one winner and I was so confident that I held my camera in my hand in case my name was called!

Passed it to someone to help me snap the winning photo.
Whyyy did u not tilt yr head down Wendy!?

I know rite, of all the days I choose to wear blue when I visit Courts. Can totally pass off as a staff. =p

Apparently it's worth $1099?

A quick check with the reseller guy whom I previously sold iPhones to quoted me only $500 for it. This model came out in Aug last year so I guess the value is no longer as high.

I think the Blackberry Torch 9800 is the 1st one to have both a keyboard AND a touchscreen.

I've not used a Blackberry before but apparently it's really useful for pple who travel a lot so I might not sell it since it'll be my turn to do so next year, maybe God knows I would need one! :))

There also had hourly deals where they slashed the prices of selected items. A Olympus Pen I camera was going for $499, originally $899 or $999.

Introducing my fave buy of the day:

A Sony Stereo Headset originally retailing at $60+! It's Gold in color and even has a built in microphone & detachable Voice Tube.

I can totally see myself using it often in hotel rooms in the future when I'm not heading out!

I probably will be Skyping Aaron, rocking to Gaga (doing that now while typing this entry!) or watching Grey's Anatomy on my laptop & get all sentimental! :)

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In the Twitter war that started yst no thanks to the uniqueness of the 'iPhone' & 'Blackberry', may I cheekily suggest a truce in the form of an....

Android! =p

The new Galaxy S II has a much bigger screen than the iPhone 4 and yet much lighter and is equipped with a 8 megapixels camera! =O Can also use Adobe Flash which Apple apparently hates, can watch catchup tv on xinmsn wherever u go how cool is that!? Very tempted to buy! :) My only concern is a lack of applications in the Market!

Somehow, there seems to be a lack of graciousness in the S'pore Blogosphere... Some bloggers hate each other and are unequivocally vocal about it. And taken to the extreme, it becomes Cyber Bullying, "I'm popular, u're not", "I have so many blogger friends, u don't". I think it hurts the atmosphere of camaraderie that we are supposed to have as a community and makes some of us uncomfortable...

Gaga sang in a new Jazz song with Tony Benett, " I never bother with people that I hate, that's why, this chick is a tramp." (U can listen to it here) Gaga is someone whom you'll never catch bitching bout others in public even though she has all the power in the world to do so and that's something that I really, really admire bout her. What a gracious, sophisticated woman! I aspire to be like her - artistic, fearless & yet, a kind soul to the very core.

Here's to more love in the blogosphere! :)

Notikum: Credit Card Deals All-in-One!

2011-09-04T11:51:00.006+08:00

Notikum allows its users to search for credit card deals with ease both on its website and mobile application. (Yes, it’s available for Android users too!)

With this new innovation by our local entrepreneurs, those living in Singapore no longer have to look for a needle in a haystack by pouring over pages & pages of information on credit card websites or brochures!

Yours truly is getting married next year and the most important thing to me is that I make the best out of the wedding event which I would be spending a lot of money on!

Type in whatever deals you are looking for, etc; Food, Movies. Shopping…

And voila, all the deals of your pre-selected credit cards will appear in a consolidated list, a Godsend especially for those who have so many cards that they can’t remb which deals are from which cards! Imagine the hassle of going to each card’s website one by one. =X

Some bloggers and I were invited for their soft launch at Chijmes Le Baroque last week and boy were they generous with the food!

Sucks to be on a diet when you have a buffet spread before yr eyes LOL!

Wouldn’t it be nice if this was a real American Express Platinum card? =p

It’s actually a thumb drive preloaded with information on Notikum! Got to love their PR team!

With one of the founders, Lennon!

I was thinking pple is Director so I had better be polite and address him formally but he was like, “Dun call me Mr. Teng, just call me Lennon!” =D He is no Poly-Halfway-Dropout and surely he doesn’t have Permanent Head Damage if not how to come up with such a brilliant invention rite? He is an actual PHD student with a business idea, salutes!

I had to make (for the lack of a better word) the makeup I put on just to attend this event worthwhile! =p Need to improve on my skills though, no ugly hand showing next time!

With Lennon’s cousin, Lindson. I think it’s spelled like that!

Can you tell? He’s only 16! I didn’t really had anyone to talk to except him… thank God he was there! Guess what we talked about? On the Fringe! HAHA. Kuduos to MediaCorp for such an awesome show btw! ;)

Bloggers with founders! =D

Mid-autumn festival is next week! Have you bought yr moon cakes yet? If not, be sure to head to www.notikum.com & sign up for an acct to find the best deals or discounts offered on your credit cards. We all need to take advantage of our advantages!

Their full launch is coming real soon and I cannnoot wait to start applying for credit cards in Feb 2012 when I'm finally finally able to do so and use Notikum! YAY. I love deals and I no longer have to tikum tikum! <3

Fist of Dragon 龙拳 Gala Premiere

2011-08-04T12:24:00.037+08:00

Fist of Dragon hits the cinema today and I was privileged to catch it first at the gala premiere last week!

From the producers of Ip Man 2... a joint production between China & Singapore!

The bloggers I met were really friendly and nice! :)

Treats were a mini-buffet spread and fruit punch!

I was busy interacting with the bloggers & snapping away on my cam that I plainly forgot I was on a strict no-soft-drinks diet and had a few glasses of the sugary drink oops!

With the director and lead actor, Michael Chuah 蔡业翰!

He's the hero of the movie, saving a village of innocent people that had suffered under the brunt of a group of gangsters as they had often forced the villagers to give them protection money or would physically injure them.

I think he must know real kung fu in order to carry out the countless fighting moves in the show. I imagine 自拍自演 must have been pretty challenging!

This handsome guy which I didn't get to take a pic with is Monday Kang!

Interesting name, haha!

He stars as a sadistic gang leader in the movie and of all the actors, I feel that his performance was the most outstanding. I find his character really believable though I think it's really difficult to act as someone sadistic!

Then in came, the superstar, Henry Thia a.k.a 辉哥！

He was utterly hilarious right from the moment he came in and stirred us all into a good crackle. A true blue comedian!

Surprisingly, Fiona Xie 谢宛谕 also stars in this movie as the prodigal daughter of Henry Thia's character. I thought she was no longer in the entertainment scene? The last I heard she immigrated away from Singapore for good.

For those who love action-packed movies and appreciate Martial Arts, this movie is a must watch! It demonstrates how good will ultimately triumph over evil and justice will prevail.

Now at a cinema near you! :)

Toast with Love – New Flavours from Toast Box!

2011-07-15T18:01:00.027+08:00

Nuffnang & Toast Box invited some bloggers and I to try out their newly unveiled flavors last week! It was my 1st food tasting event so I was pretty excited and nervous at the same time! =D

Guess which outlet I was at!?

Thankfully Stephen was one of the invited bloggers too
& he made me feel at home straight away & vice versa! =D

Before we jump into their new flavors, let’s look at some of the old favorites!

Tada! Floss Thick Toast. Does it remind of you of something?

I immediately associated with BreadTalk’s Floss bun haha. I googled Toast Box and lo & behold, ToastBox is actually one of the companies under the BreadTalk Group! Didn’t know that! So is Food Republic, Ding Tai Fung & the new restaurant, RamenPlay! =O I salute the founder of BreadTalk, zai!

Some may think that Singapore doesn’t have our own unique identity and culture as compared to the world but we do, and it is most evident in our food!

Have you heard of Hebi Hiam Thick Toast!?
Now, where else in the world can you find this? =D

Ever eaten Otah with bread to make up for a more fulfilling snack?

I should buy one for my grandma, I think she’ll find it a novelty. Okay, now for the new flavors!!

Pepsi Calamansi & Mango Aloe Vera.

I hardly ever order mango drinks when I’m out and neither do I eat the fruit at home but I really digged this drink! Didn’t leave anything behind hehe.

It is made up of mango puree + fresh milk. Thumbs up for no syrup! Aloe Vera is also great for the skin so girls, this drink is a must try when you visit ToastBox. Initially I thought a drink like this would costs 4 to 6 bucks at a cafe but it’s only $2.80! So super worth it lah.

If you like Pepsi, then surely you will give Pepsi Calamansi a shot, insanely affordable at $2.50! Most restaurants & clubs charge at least $4 for a can of Pepsi alone lor. (– _ –)’’’

U’ve tried Tom Yam Soup but have u ever tasted a Tom Yam Garlic Thick Toast?

It is made from Toast Box’s own concoction of Tom Yam paste, chopped fresh garlic, chili & spring onion. It’s only slightly spicy so it is “tongue-friendly”even for pple who don’t take spicy food like me! Hehe.

My favorite! Butter Milk Thick Toast, super yum!

It will just make you very happy when you put it into your mouth. If only I can have this for breakfast every other day, hehe. I would definitely want to visit Toast Box again for this!

Totally not gonna dine at another cafe which happens to be near the S*cape outlet I was at. Their slogan is “Take Your Time” & they literally take their time to serve you rite? LOL.

The Toast Box outlet at S*cape also has this beautiful sofa which I can imagine would make the whole experience there really cosy and enjoyable.

Last, but definitely NOT least ... Literally!

Kaya, Kopi & Peanut Butter Ice Cream on Thick Toast!

The Hainanese kaya ice cream was perfect for a sweet tooth like me on a hot afternoon! You can mix & match any of the flavors! It is priced at $4.80 & at $5.80 with a drink, ideal for sharing if u want to cut down on calories hehe. Initially I thought the toppings on top were raisins but they’re actually red beans. If one doesn’t fancy red beans, there is also the option of grated peanuts or roasted almond flakes! Can I have everything? =p

Super love Stephen's photography skills!

Good things come in sets! =D

Happy bloggers after a satisfying meal!

Not only is the boss of Toast Box smart & entrepreneurial, his company also does its part for the community!

Print this out for the discount coupon!

Till 31st July, Toast Box will donate 10 cents off every purchase of their new flavors to Abilities Beyond Limitations and Expectations (ABLE), where the physically challenged will be empowered to contribute back to society.

Surely Singapore would benefit from more of such social entrepreneurial initiatives. No company is more attractive to me than a creative one that constantly improves & launches new products and yet, find the time and energy to help those in need. Impressive!

Here’s to Toast-ing with LOVE! ♥

Singapore Flyer with the Elderly on Easter!

2011-04-25T02:11:00.003+08:00

I'm glad that this Easter I didn't had to fret bout not attending multiple services, not inviting enough people to church, or feel responsible for empty seats and a lack of new friends saved! I am finally free from this annual commitment after 7 years!

Thankfully, in this new year, in this new decade, everything starts afresh.

This Easter morning was spent bringing some elderly who stay in one-room flats at Kim Tian Place to the Singapore Flyer! Peeps from LifeUnited, Clement, Carlos, Xue Er and whoever I left out actually went to knock on their doors one by last week to invite them! Respect!

I believe they'll all taking a ride on the iconic structure for the 1st time!

The Journey of Dreams begins!

It's his 1st too so he really 赚到, hahaha!

It'll be so cool if we get to see this every time we go through security checks at the airport!


Just look at the disparity between the pictures I take of him and vice versa. -_-'''


It's supernatural, extraterrestrial! =D


A super-colorful spherey thingy!

After a short walk through the exhibition, it's time to take the a-dollar-per-minute ride!

Youthies & oldies. And the universal Peace Sign!


Look! It's a bird, it's a plane, no it's ________! That line is forever inked in my memory!


I look the best here amongst the photos we took and he 偏偏 not looking at the camera!


One of the proudest achievements of the incumbent... Also, one of the markers in which they have deemed themselves to be successful leaders of Singapore. Do Singaporeans at large feel the same way? Personally, I am a little disillusioned with the Singaporean way of life, with the ideology that "if you study hard, you will eventually get a good job and if you work hard, one day you will be successful" that we are all too familiar with since we were kids in school. Yet on the other hand, I know that Singapore wouldn't be the stable and safe First World nation that we are today without the immense vision of our leaders. So I'm really confused as to who to vote for in the meantime! The easiest way out is to draw a turtle on my polling card come Election Day, haha! Disclaimer: This is just a joke! After enjoying the scenery in the quick 30 mins ride, we brought the elderly to the Singapore Food Trail food court where we served them the catered nasi lemak. The drink stall sells drinks that comes in old school glass bottles with metal caps and how very coincidentally I needed the latter for a design of a wall panel at LifeUnited's new church venue! And of course, Lady Wen being Lady Wen, I unabashedly asked the staff at the drink stall to give me all the metal caps that they had twice in 2 rounds of collecting! =D Hiak hiak hiak. My most artistic photo of the day and I would like to call it, "Old School vs. New Cool". Haha. =p The excursion today made me realize that blessing the community or the elderly in this instance can be as simple as buying them a meal and bringing them to visit a place. It's not a lot of hassle and one doesn't have to spend a bomb! What I liked about this community project is that it is purely voluntary and whoever is interested can just sign up for it. There was no obligations and no fuss about it. And it is so unlike what I was used to doing during the Easter season. And I'm loving it. We didn't just had one big service, boom and went on to the next but Pst Darren had intentionally slowed things down and we talked about Jesus and the cross for 4 weeks in lieu of Easter. We had the Holy Communion every week and even actual unleavened bread and red wine in the last! We were also welcomed to bring the elements home and could partake of it it in the privacy of our own home whenever we prefer. No more autopilot mode! I had a deeper understanding of the Cross and the significance of the Holy Communion which I feel is so much more meaningful than the hullabaloo that I've been exposed to every time this year. How very liberating. Happy Easter everyone! :)

It was everything I ever dreamed of...

2011-04-01T11:30:00.001+08:00

Power 98 started it first:

And it was really fun to play along! Check out the WhatsApp convo with a friend:

Victim no. 1. Hehehe. I almost wished it was true. I was cracking my brains trying to think of a hilarious joke I but I couldn't think of anything funny at all! All I could think of was like tweeting, " I just fainted and then I think I was in heaven. I saw angels with wings!" *lame* Totally have no crazy humor cells in me like Ding Neng does.

And lo and behold this greeted me on my Facebook newsfeed this morning!

Even though I'm not very close to Reinald, I know there was no way he was gonna be in a R/S now. Inspired, I had to pull one myself! =D

Tada!

Then look at the response of my friends!!! =DDDDD

And another!

I learnt that FB will show whatever pics that you and yr partner is tagged in when you are "married" to each other so I went to untag the ugly ones!

And I had to save the best for the last! Our WhatsApp convo part 2!

Hehehehehe. She believed me!!! Couldn't stop laughing to myself! Ms. J even tried to call my "hubby" to verify but thank heavens he was in a meeting! She even smsed to say she wanted to be my bridesmaid!! It's amazing how many of my female friends want to be my bridesmaid and and even a male friend haha!! At this rate, I would have to hold an audition for it!

I had so much fun being married for a day. Can you imagine when I really do get married!? You girls didn't really think I was ever gonna ROM without first announcing it to the whole world, did you!? =D

Just remember, Power 98 and Reinald started it first! Not me! Hehe! =p But if you're still pissed/feel cheated/dun think it's funny or whatever, watch this video! Confirm won't be upset anymore! *winks winks*

Oh you don't wanna miss the magic at 2:44!!

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY EVERYONE!! You wouldn't believe the number of times I literally ROFL!! My first ever major April Fool's prank in my life was a success. Hope you had as much fun as I did! =p

Now, back to waiting for that dude to get down on his knees and say those 4 sacred words!

The Time Has Come for Those Who Are Different… to Stand United! :)

2011-01-18T22:25:00.001+08:00

On the 1^st day of 2011, I think at around 5.50 pm, He said to me, “I am going to bless you. Get ready for it.”

What followed were days of being ill, not being able to sleep properly cos my brain was running non-stop, crying, being frustrated with myself & some around me, laughing, teasing pple and getting teased at, talking to friends and leaders, being in denial, pacing up and down my house, staring out of the window, looking up at the sky to see no stars, enjoying Hillsong Chapel & being healed emotionally, resting, recovering, to finally... having peace and enlightenment! ^_^ v

I have decided to follow Jesus ♥. I can say a lot but nothing says it like the following web pages! Just click on them (opens in a new tab):

1. An Entrepreneur's Awakening

2. Continuously Dreamin'

3. Call for Diversity

I am ready. I am willing to let go in order to let God take over. I will miss you dearly City Harvest ♥, you have no idea okay! :)

;) P.S: Feel free to leave comments if you have any thoughts or questions that you would like to share or ask! :)

Wisdom From A Friend

2011-01-13T06:22:00.001+08:00

I was quite troubled about this initially. The tell tale sign was this tweet:

I had many questions but I felt that I wouldn’t be given straight answers in it’s entire truth even if I asked the right people with the answers. At least not yet. “The less you know the better” statement is blurgh. Just gimme truth.

Curiosity killed the cat, and perhaps even Adam and Eve, but not Wendy. I have learned about many things throughout my life, thanks to an insatiable desire to find answers via asking questions.

If these questions were affecting me so much, I knew it meant that I had to figure it out and find closure before I could move on.

I instinctively sms-ed a particular friend for help because he’s smart max & he didn’t fail to impress at all! His words were so edifying to me, I want to blog it down! And just in case you’re struggling with the same issue too, this might help.

All names censored for their protection. I’ve come to learn this skill in an extremely painful and hard way… But better learned now then never!

Words in white are his. Emphasis, paragraphing, and words in black are mine. Here it goes!:

We cannot say that if things remained the same we wouldn’t have remained stagnated (or even become smaller) or that __ wouldn’t have become a ______ (or might become if even earlier). In the end, __ made the most logical/spiritual decision available to him, and __ dealt with it in the most logical/spiritual way available.

Even if it was a “moment of weakness or misjudgment”, you and I know better than many that everyone is fallible – we all make mistakes. The only reason why we look at a __ or __ mistake (and think a lot about it) is cos they were in positions that killed more pple. LOL.

Still… You need to understand that as a leader or as an individual, our responsibility is the same: To make the decision we determine is best.

_____ is perhaps where the politics are the worst (although I’m slightly bitter in claiming this). Cos the ____ is where relationship is placed above results (although I heard that __ is a very results person), and guess what?

Isn’t politics a direct result of relationship? To be exact, politics is the manipulation of relationships. And in the gathering of imperfect people where relationship is the key to promotion/prestige, we make every decision equally from love or the other, and from love for ourselves.

In effect, unless you’re in heaven, a culture centered on relationship is also a culture that most breeds politics. [Hard for me to disagree with this. Especially when I did struggle in time past between the concept of excellence versus giving people a chance. Do still struggle with it once in a blue moon...]

This isn’t to say that __ __t cos of politics but let’s be mature and realistic and not see the ____ office as too awesome a place.

Still… in life things (beyond our control) happen that impact our lives. But the onus (aka responsibility) to reacting, managing, and overcoming it is YOURS. And it is when you understand the ability to contain these changes that you can bring blessings to others. [WOW!]

He sent me all these long smses with wise words in the span of an hour while he was attending service and he could still pay attention to and absorb the message being shared! Awesome right? :)

Now whoever said you can’t counsel someone over sms? :) Just need some patience and skill! And a willingness to spend a few more cents on sms! Haha. Now that’s what I call great leadership! Quick and effective! Okay la, he is gifted in counseling so I shall give others a discount. :)

P.S: I am now 70% sure of the 2nd more impt decision of my life that I have re-considered. The question is I dunno for how long I will keep to my decision. I’m keeping an open mind and a never-say-never stance! \m/

Okay, this is completely no link to what I shared: Justin Bieber’s movie bout his life and rise to fame, Never Say Never is out in cinemas this Feb! All you Justin Bieber haters should watch it! HAHA. Then perhaps u’ll have a chance of becoming lovers! Stop screaming in agony!!! =p

P.P.S: I’m not a fan, I just think it’s really great that someone as young as him can be using his talent to be a blessing to people. Inspiring! He’s a good kid (though I must add that he’s very mature for his age. I know, cos I follow him on Twitter). Peace out!

Next Year, To Save Me From Tears, I’ll Give It to Someone Special…

2010-12-31T15:54:00.032+08:00

An incident happened on Xmas eve that caused me to 胡思乱想 (have weird ideas) that I have a curse on special occasions! Once bitten, twice shy. Twice bitten? But I know it isn’t true, don’t worry.

This entry however, is not to share my current pain/concerns but to thank God for my wonderful friends who make my life so happening and worth living for in spite of it all! I’m determined to be strong and not let my emotions crush me because that is so yesterday.

All photos not taken by me (credits: Deb, Kenneth, the Jons & YC) but I edited most of them! Here we go!

1st highlight of Xmas this year was…

Tada! Caroling to the patients at Singapore General Hospital on 17 Dec.

Initially I was quite hesitant to participate as I thought to myself… Will singing carols really make a significant difference? Will that 5 hours of practice for like half an hour’s worth of performance be worth my time?

But the more we sang and the more I saw the smiles on the audience’ faces and hear their applause, the more I realize it was worth it. I wasn’t wasting my time!

Am grateful for the opportunity to serve the community in a little way. We all have to start somewhere.

Just give us a mirror & and we’ll make gd those few seconds in the lift!

After SGH, we walked to…

for more caroling at a party!

Performing for the residents & their guests at the Sky Park! 57th floor or something!

Standing at the edge, soaking in the the surreal atmosphere & enjoying the breeze brought much needed serenity to my soul…

I had a lot of fun hanging out with fellow carolers at practices becos they’re all such fun-loving, hilarious and talented people. :)

Maybe one day I might own a unit at Blk 1G of The Pinnacle @Duxton?

It costs at least half a million dollars I think? Ching ching. Location & design is great but not much facilities/food within walking distance!

Next up, my dearest friends & I had a Back To School Partaay on the eve of Xmas eve! =D

Here’s what we were up to before our teacher arrived in class!

Spot yr fave sch gurl!

Ahn-Nyeong Hah-Seh-Yo to the Korean boys!

Cute "NCC & NPCC" boys! If I remb correctly my high sch crushes
were all guys from those 2 CCAs. *giggles*

Loving the MP's hairstyle! Can't stop staring at those 2 glowing letters! Magic!

Mug shot of the cutest and
cheerful-est classmate alive!

Class monitress Jamie & her bff Ade insisted that gd parties have gd food so here’s the
sumptuous spread of “canteen food”!

That plate of sushi you see cost me ten bucks! *heart pain* My fave food was the plate of crackers with cheese dip that Debbie bought from Cold Storage (center). Damn gd!

WAX even made “Peking Duck” roll (top right). Of course, I must not forget to thank the class monitress’ maid for cooking the spaghetti & curry chicken for us! =D

We played Charades where each wrote a phrase that describes him/herself and we had to act it out & guess who owned it! Some called themselves dunno what flower one I cannot remb!

I wear short skirts she wears t-shirts! =p	Oh the boys who like to walk around in their PE attire after soccer/basketball and what nots. =p
	Confess now if you titled yr head to admire the Korean heartthrob! Woo hoo!
Giving out of report cards for our performance this year! Panic mode	In came Ms. Teo dressed up like one of us becos she is awesome like that! Say boo to boring teachers!

As usual, thanks to my sir name I am register no. 1! And my classmates simply had to tease me by saying my full name out LOUD. *cringes*

I got 3 A*s for Winsome-ness, Outgoing-Factor & Bubbly-ness and here’s the very kind remarks Ms. Teo gave:

Wendy is a girl who is never afraid to voice her opinions in class and is very willing to be the voice for her classmates. A highly winsome person, she has friends even out of class that she has positively influenced. She is strongly passionate and will not fail to act on what she believes in, and this is what will bring her far in life.

I hope so Ms. Teo. I really really hope so... So unbelievably tired of being shot down & misunderstood during times when I’m just really passionate bout what I believe in.…

I need Ade to tutor me in Finger Acrobatics!

Has WAX been naughty or nice?

When I realized that every single person got 3 A*s, I was like, " I WANT A BELL CURVE!!!!" I am Rachel Berry ttm (to the max) and nobody likes me, I mean her even though I really admire her character in the show!! =D I'm only talking about Glee, the coolest drama series in the world.

We gave Ms. Teo an autograph book writing our faves & hates and a poem or msg, pri school style! Yes think "Roses are red, violets are blue..." We all told her how much we love her & how we’ve been blessed by her teaching! :)

She looks way cuter than me. And since when am I taller than her!? I must have grown through 4 years of HIGH school!

Time for “class photos” FUNKY STYLE! Each photo represented our interpretation of a fellow classmate.

Watashi’s! (' ' ') (' ' ') Loved it.

I’m still trying to figure out Kenneth’s interpretation of me (far right circled). Does he think I’m a duck, a swan, a ballerina or a devil? I have no idea! =D

Super love Ding Neng’s pose (most left circled)! Damn cute! I think he was imitating me in the following photo!

Lol! Took this at like 1am on the day of Stand Chart Marathon when the road was closed! =D

Every time I see this photo and their expressions I just laugh!

We simply <3 the most poker-faced smiley boy in this photo. =D Guess who?

Check out our interpretation of HAHAHA! Super hilarious can't stand it!!!
He was very nice to me that day! <3

He went for the camera & snapped a photo of his behind!! What a brave ~~butt~~ soul!!

Rock bands' performance for… the camera!

Anything can become an instrument! Even hair & a pad! Oh yeah!

We can always count on Debbie to bring it! \m/

“Rocker chics FTW!” – Vann

In came Ms. Teo’s husband, affectionally known as Mr. Wongjojojo!

We challenged him to Xbox Kinect Dance Central
and oh my gawd, we were beaten hands down!

His years of dance training is still inside him! Mine is like gone dunno where. :(

Time for kiddos to head home!

Droved by Jon Goh for the 1st time! :) A very safe driver that goes 60km/hr!

Thanks Jamie for letting us use your house! :) E Four Four One High sure knows how to partaay, best one ever. :)

25th Dec came!! Went to church for the 1pm Christmas service! :)

We Feliz Navida-ed & messed up each other’s hair during the woo part! And even used our own shaker to join in the music! Hohoho. (I guess we were simply bored that every year it’s always the same songs! Oops.)

The drama production, 'Heroes of Faith Academy', was a tear-jerker. Could super relate to Veroy Potter but ended up was the person on my left and right crying! Hehe.

Then we headed to Bugis Junction’s Ministry of Food for our late lunch!

They’re so pretty. :)

I vehemently objected to MOF initially cos I had a very bad experience when Aaron and I were there a few days before. The servers kept bringing other customers’ orders to our table and the rice of the Bento I ordered tasted like crap.

I even came down with a very sore throat immediately after! Downed lots & lots of water, Ribena and Woods Peppermint cough syrup before it went away!

But thank God I ordered the right food this time! Their chicken ramen is gd! $12+.

Their service was slow as usual despite the fact that the restaurant was barely half full?

Jon’s choc fondue with dunno what!

3 of them had high tea buffet(4 to 6pm, $20). And I just had to put this photo!

Vic said it’s the "ahhh the food so good" face! Lmao.

Santarina gave us liqueur chocs!

Then Vann & I quickly zipped to Marina Bay Sands! It was all impromtu. Thank you gf for inviting me, u’re my savior!

Hate the shadow on my face that I can’t/dunno how to remove! :(

The only place you wanna be is underneath my Xmas tree! Sings Gaga! =D

International Buffet at Rise with her family. Xmas day was feasting day!

Just look at the view from my seat!!! Cakes, choc fondue, and more cakes! *drools*

U salad lovers will dig this! Not me! :) I digged the previous! =D

They also had all sorts of sashimi there. Service was superb. Go there to find out! :) Sadly I couldn’t each much cos I was still very full from the ramen!

Hit the hotel room after dinner!

There was a bath tub in the huge ass toilet! =0 And I had to do this!

I want a rubber ducky.

Just the four of us…

The toilet was so huge the mirror in it can fit all our reflections. See the 2 doors behind us? One’s a WC and the other a shower! And there’s 2 basins! I want my future toilet to be like that! Don’t have to fight over using the toilet ever! =D

Picture perfect! Just look at the view! :)

City view from Ku de ta!

We went to the club just to see what it’s like. Saw some Caucasians drinking... nothin’ much! The most expensive bottle on the menu was $2k plus! Siao siao. Entrance fee after 9pm was $108 that night. Only for the rich ~~& wasteful~~.

While Vann’s parents were sleeping, we sat right outside the hotel room door along the corridor and had a HTHT (heart to heart talk) till 2am! Unforgettable. <3

Heaven is a place on earth when true friends stick by you through thick & thin.

Boxing Day came! Woke up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy & brushed our teeth with a bottle of Jack!

Nooo… we woke up at 7+ feeling like ourselves & headed to the Infinity Pool! (I like Tik Tok but I dislike Ke$ha, random!)

Now, behold, the photo that will give me 10,000 hits…

Wee woo wit!

And this one 20,000! Hiak hiak.

The angle doesn’t seem quite right to me but the only decent photo of what I was “doing”. =p

Only realized that there's warm jacuzzis at my 2nd visit!

This sibling pair is sweet. My bro refuses to hang out with me, let alone soak in a Jacuzzi tgt! Lol.

Back to “开房"！

My strange resemblance to a friend's ex-colleague here.

Katy Perry’s Firework came on MTV & we went “Oh, oh, oh as you shoot across the sky”
at the top of our lungs! Absolutely no need for alcohol to get us high, uh huh.

Checked out at 11am!

Thank you for my Xmas pressies Vann, Peien & Vic! :)

Dunno why Peien enclosed a one dollar USD my card but it definitely caught my attention! :) Am I allowed to use it when I visit America again? Haha.

Oh I super love what Vic wrote in my card!:

Wendy! You are one bubbly girl. No doubt a roller coaster ride to be with you (censored censored), but what’s life without a little adventure? Merry Christmas! Love, Victor

Later that evening, I made a thousand bucks for about six hours of work. Best Xmas present ever. God is good to me! :) I'll never be able to understand why anyone would simply choose to walk away from Him especially after all that He has done for them.

Hope you had a happy Christmas and a fabulous New Year! Mine has to top it next year! Especially when I’m giving it to special people ~~only~~! :)

P.S: It took me bloody long to do this entry so I had no more time for other entries. :( I shall blog faster next year! RAWR.

Strictly Pancakes!

2010-10-26T14:42:00.002+08:00

I’m no food blogger but good stuff, or good food in this instance, must be shared!

Even popular food blogs like ieatishootipost and ladyironchef have yet to review this cafe/restaurant so I’m honored to beat them to it! Hahaha! Just give this ~~insignificant~~ blogger something to boast about can!? =p

Aiya, can't remove the ugly black border.

Strictly Pancakes, Singapore’s 1st dedicated pancake cafe opened its doors on 19 Sept 2010 at 44A Prinsep Street!

It’s two buildings away from Hotel Rendezvous & across the road from POMO shopping centre. No clue where that is? It’s a stone throw away from SMU and School of the Arts (SOTA). STILL DUNNO WHERE? I’VE GOT NUTHIN’ TO SAY!

My big group of friends and I (>10) eagerly went to Strictly Pancakes both on opening day & on 10 Oct with the anticipation of celebrating birthdays there but were turned away on both occasions due to a full house and understaffed kitchen! U can imagine my initial disappointment!

However, when I finally got to try the pancakes on 12 Oct, I was hooked! I have since dined at the cafe not once, but 3 times in 3 weeks! =D

Introducing my fave thus far…

Beef Me Up! $14.

It is super delicious! A must try, especially for beef lovers! I shall tantalize u with a close-up shot!

Tada! Super thick juicy home-made beef patty,

extra-thick pancakes with sauteed mushrooms and Arigula salad.

Serves only one! Don’t bother sharing this cos u’ll end up fighting over it! I gobbled up like 3 quarters of it even though I was supposed to share it with Aaron! =p

Their business is really good even though they have not done any form of advertising so u can imagine how good their food must be! :) Word-of-mouth is powerful! Their pancakes were even sold out on opening day! Unreal!

To avoid disappointment, esp if u’re going with a big grp of friends, be sure to call them at 63334202 to make reservations!

Oh and students rejoice becos you get 10% discount when u flash yr student pass!

Hardworking Jamie sorting out some work stuff on her netbook!

She told me they painted the wall themselves with the use of stencil. So innovative and resourceful lor! *thumbs up*

I adjusted the contrast and brightness of that photo and I think it looks damn cool in comparison! Don’t believe me? I SHOW U!

This is the cui (slang for lousy) original! Hahaha.

Adeline, the VIP of the day was wearing uber cool clothes from her recent Hong Kong trip. Quite gaga-ish with shoulder pads and studs! I dunno why I forgot to take pics of her! *smacks forehead*

Here’s what we ordered!

Salmon Run. $14.

Smoked Salmon topped with Dill Sour-cream and a wedge of lemon. I didn’t eat much of it cos I’m not a fan of salmon! Adeline was hungry so she managed to finish the whole plate! Hehe.

The pancakes are very filling so I recommend two pple sharing a medium stake of 3!

Garlic Buttered Prawns with tiny & juicy tomatoes. $14.

The prawns were well-cooked but there was too much garlic for my liking.

I’ve also tried the The Druggie, $11 which is all chocolaty but no pics cos Aaron’s iPhone got reset and we lost ‘em! Choc lovers should definitely try it but be sure to share cos I think it’ll be too much for one person to take!

Their milkshakes are only $5 a glass, cheaper than those at Billy Bombers ~~and Everything With Fries~~! I had a few sips of the Nutella Milkshake. Both Aaron and Adeline like it so I think it must be good! I prob was PMSing so badly I didn’t know how to appreciate it!

Found two other interesting blog reviews when I googled Strictly Pancakes!:

1. http://vanilla-n-breakfast.blogspot.com/2010/09/strictly-pancakes.html

2. http://yumyumformytumtum.wordpress.com/2010/09/24/strictly-pancakes-all-day-pancake-cafe/

Their photos are like so much nicer than mine! Bleah.

One of the lady bosses, Eunice, Adeline’s NUS friend, started the business with her friend straight after graduation! She must be like only 22 years old! I really salute their entrepreneurial spirit!

How many uni students and fresh grads have dreamt about owning their own business and being their own boss and how many of those dreams have actually come to fruition!? Mine hasn’t! *pouts*

Follow Strictly Pancakes on Facebook and Twitter here and here! Lady foodie Wen signing out!

‘So I recommend having fun, because there is nothing better for people in this world than to eat, drink, and enjoy life. That way they will experience some happiness along with all the hard work God gives them under the sun.’ – Ecc 8:15 (NLT)

Money Never Sleeps, So Does My Blog and the World We Live in!

2010-09-26T04:15:00.005+08:00

I was super restless during the 1st half of service today so I Twitter spammed to keep myself entertained and on my seat. Thankfully it got so much better towards the end! Cheers to more of ARB and double P! :)

You know, I can’t help but constantly feel a pressure to perform, to be the best, to be the head and not the tail, to be the top, to win.

I think it's largely attributed to the fact that I live in Singapore, one of the most advanced and fast-paced cities in the world. But perhaps, it’s just me.

I expect a lot from myself. I’m naturally a highly competitive person who loves to win. It is especially reflected in the way I play games, be it Monopoly Deal, Volleyball or whatever, I just love to win and hate to lose!

And of course, not forgetting the fact that I’m a Christian, and like what Dr. AR Bernard said today, I have a responsibility not to let darkness triumph, and to let my light shine and be a positive influence to society.

Pressure from society, pressure from self, pressure from community and definitely not forgetting pressure, spoken or unspoken, from family… It will just about cripple anyone in the right mind!

So I’m really thankful that I have God, because He helps me to carry the heavy burdens that I can’t carry myself. Yeah, call me weak and whatever, but I just know there is so much I need to accomplish in this lifetime but I am too limited in many ways that it would be rather impossible to do ALL that I’m meant and supposed to do in this lifetime just by my human strength alone.

Well, maybe I can achieve a grade ‘A’ in life on my own, since after all, God did actually say that human beings have such strong will power that they can achieve all that they want as seen from the Tower of Babel. But with God, I probably can achieve A+++ to the power of infinity. Anyone in the right mind would choose the latter! :)

So I’m learning through all the drought and seemingly endless days of waiting in my life right now to trust in God, that my big big leader up there has a great plan installed for me and that I just have to be patient to take things one step a time (though I really wanna take 10!!) and not fret! :)

He’s gonna do a great work in me, let’s all wait and see! No I’m not conceited, I’m just confident of His power and His call upon my life. And it takes courage to say that! Can you imagine if my life turned out to be a big flop when I announced to the world that it’s gonna turn out great? =D

So why am I saying all this and what has it got to do with the title of my blog!? Well, I just watched Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps and it’s kinda reflective of the pressure from a ever-demanding world with so many things to achieve and seemingly unless material goods to obtain.

Thanks to Gopal who smsed me during service to tell me bout the complimentary tics he had! Can’t say no to impromptu (means exciting, fun & NOT boring) free stuff! =D

I won’t spoil it for those who haven watched it but it’s a really brilliant movie filled with unexpected twists, intelligent dialogue and artistic camera angles! Definitely worth the money. I even teared watching two scenes!! Sentimental ~~bitch~~ person I am, can’t help it!

It’s about the greed of human beings that caused the Wall Street meltdown and financial crisis in 2008 that experts said that the world had not witnessed since the days of the Great Depression!

If anything is for sure, it’s that America’s movie industry will never collapse, at least not imho! Cos no other country in the world can beat their pure ingenuity when it comes to entertainment. Not Bollywood, not China and definitely not Europe (London, u needa catch up!). Hmmm, when I have the money I should invest in American production companies if that is even possible!

Anyway to digress a little, Michael Douglas, the old man in the movie poster, is having stage 4 throat cancer. Hopefully he’ll survive it! If u' re clueless bout Michael Douglas like I am... I found out that he's married to Catherine Zeta Jones, who is 25 years her junior!

Can you imagine being so hot and marrying a man who is older than yr father? Well, she did and have been married for 10 years now with 2 kids! All things really are possible huh!?

Jamie gladly accompanied me to watch the movie even though she was supposed to meet her bf! *Feels honored* We had a good chat about work life on our way back and it’s kinda therapeutic in some way!

When I became a working adult in July last year, it sometimes felt lonely cos like 90% of my cg members are still students so there were moments when I felt that it’ll be difficult to be on the same page and to click.

But now that Jamie is official a working adult on her first full time job, it’s so liberating! We talk to each other about it and it’s so refreshing and I no longer feel alone. Yes, I’m a highly sentimental person, what to do.

So money needs to be earned, the world will keep spinning and my blog will be available 24/7 even when I’m asleep!

So… cheers to a great future dear blog readers! We got to believe it no matter how bleak this post- 2008-financial-crisis-world may seem, we’re all in the same boat so it’s still not that bad comparatively!

It’s a challenging time I must say for my generation, especially us university students who just graduated last & this year what with the lousy job market now, but the best is yet to be cos we ARE the future.

10, 20 years from now in 2020,2030? I think we’ll so be rocking the world & making it awesome... we’ll be living in a time with the highest percentage of educated people in world history? Imagine that!

Btw, it’s my cg leader’s birthday today! So here’s a shout out to the birthday girl who is celebrating her first birthday as a married woman! Does it feel different and extra special I wonder??

She's getting more and more pretty with time! Her skin's like so good!

Anyway Zoe, if u asked me, I think what sets you apart from other DT leaders is that you have the ability to impart unto the ladies how to beautify themselves & become more demure and gorgeous which although is surfacial (i just invented the word) is really important since the bible says that people look at outward appearances! That I definitely can't learn from Justin and you know who! Hehehe.

Also, you are a great boy-girl-relationship advice giver. Those moments when you helped me in my R/S were most memorable. These are two areas that I am most impacted by you in! :)

Also I love your cool, calm and contemplative side though there are moments when I wished u'll be more RAHHHH (a.k.a assertive/aggressive) but I've since learnt and am continuing to learn to accept you for you & not as the image of an ideal leader I picture in my mind. :))))

Baby, baby, baby, Oh! Time for a baby, baby, baby! Hehehe.

Thanks for everything Zoe! :) <3 you!

P.S: Listen closely to the lyrics of the songs playing in the Wall Street movie! “The wheel keeps spinning”! Love how it fits the theme so perfectly! Anyway Gopal, u said u wanted to meet me but we didn't even meet though we in the same theatre! How lame of you! =p Haha but really thanks, the movie was awesome! :)

Finally a Blog-worthy Saturday!

2010-09-25T05:00:00.016+08:00

So much energy even at 2+ am (took a nap in the afternoon!) so it’s finally time to blog! Been procrastinating this entry for a couple of day! *smacks my naughty blogger butt* LOLL!

Since the last dim sum lunch I had with my friends at the above eating place (I won’t call it a restaurant cos the interior is quite bleah if u know what I mean) somewhere in Geylang a few wks back, I’ve been very gian (Hokkien word for strong desire) to have a cheap dim sum buffet cos I felt that the one we had wasn’t value for money!

So finally last Saturday, Aaron and I went to have a dim sum buffet but the cheap one (less than $20) at a restaurant we found on a list that Ladyironchef posted on his blog was actually closed down. :(

Replacing it was Pearl Garden restaurant & after taxes & service charge the bill amounted to $40 per person! Absolutely not worth it! I should have called before going! *beats chest*

Please don’t go there even though I’m talking about it because it’s really not worth the money! Very ironic I know but here are some pictures to tantalize yr taste buds!

This porridge was delicious!

Thanks to Aaron for helping me write the words!

Teach me Photoshop asap plssss cos I’m a handicapped blogger now, boo hoo hoo!

Horrible horrible Char Siew Bao. Even those 80 cents kind in coffee shops tastes better lor!

Below average spring rolls. :(

After the buffet, I headed to Sasa at Bugis Junction to have my night makeup done for clubbing later that night! The makeup artist, Jolin, was friendly & efficient as always! :) Having ultra-awesome makeup with fake eyelashes, superchio eye shadows & all never fails to up my confidence level a notch! ;)

Reached Expo Hall 8 at like 5.29pm(phew)! Pst Kong preached about Crisis & I had a fave part but I shall leave it for a particular blog post in time to come! It’s gonna be good so stay tuned!! :)

The Inseparables!

My bible study student & 21st Birthday boy looked like

a preacher with the huge bible in his hands & that long sleeved shirt! =p

We headed to the recently opened Esplanade Xchange! They seriously didn’t do any marketing (at least not tt I know of) so I’m guessing most Singaporeans haven been there nor heard of it even unless they passed by! It’s not even up on SMRT's shopping website though it’s been opened for more than 2 months! Somebody say lousy!

(Source: Xinmsn)

We went to a restaurant called Rock & Ash to celebrate Edward’s birthday! The place was average I would say! Worth a try though cos the prices are reasonable. $9.90 and above meal combos! Their specialty is different flavored fries! They even have fries with chocolate sauce but we didn’t try! Boo hoo!

Vann’s chicken fillet & fries!

Oh anyway, they get an ‘A’ for their service standard cos they gave Val and Vann a complimentary potato & cheese side dish each after mixing up their orders & making them wait at least 20 mins! AND, when my order was not what I expected it to be (the Potato Gratin I initially ordered is like only 2 mouthfuls of serving, don’t order!!), the staff/boss gladly let me order another meal & refunded the difference, no questions asked! How awesome! Restaurants with insincere service, are you listening?

“I wish… to be a millionaire by age 30”!

No lah, actually he wished for greater capacity.

Yes, the cafe we bought the cake from didn’t have candles. =S

But that didn’t stop the BD boy from blowing. Haha! =p

The designer was very proud of her creation.

But the receiver couldn’t keep his eyes wide open with flash!

Somebody say _______! HEH! =P

Victor,”I like to qiang jin tou (be in the spotlight)”! =p

Our gift to him was a Zara t-shirt. Nice!? :)

Yes, we love Zara or what?

After dinner it was time to get buttered! I haven clubbed since Oct last year so I was really looking forward to it! Almost a year of club-fast (not deliberate), I’m like so over clubbing cos it’s getting boring…. I’m turning 23 sooon, booooo!

Rid, "I'm soooo ready to partaayy!"

Initially, I was a little upset when I realized tt Rid got us on the guest list of Fash which plays electro music but we couldn’t go into Bump, the main Hip Hop room (cos I thought he told me tt he could). In the end we paid the entrance fees to get into the latter sometime close to midnight so it was all gd!

Did you know that Forlino, where Xiaxue had her wedding, is just right beside Butter Factory!?

Vann & I were mad excited we ran in to pose in front of the atas interiors!

I only realized I forgot to take my camera with me after I checked it in at the counter & the ~~bitch~~ girl at the counter said I had to pay another $2 if I wanted to take anything out! DAYLIGHT ROBBERY!

Zouk gives complimentary bag check-ins & most clubs I know do so why is Butter Factory so stingy/greedy!? $2 to check in a bag I can undertstand but to make us pay again when we need to put or take something out!? And what’s more, when you check in yr bag together w/ another for example, you have to pay $4 to take something out from one of them! Simply ridiculous & a major turn off! Butter Factory’s team, I hope you are reading this!

Rid brought along 3 other NUS friends, two of whom were from India too & they were really gd-looking! Check them out! Stole photos from their Facebook cos one of them brought a camera & took photos but the camera turned out to be their friend’s ~~and I haven got the pics until now!Punishment for leaving my cam in the bag. :(~~

Introducing Varoun Gandhi!

Looks damn handsome in this photo & so model-esque right!?

And really friendly & dances well too. HOT!

Okay this photo doesn’t do Ris justice cos can’t fully see his

handsome face but that’s about the only decent profile pic in his FB!

~~I’m guessing he only joined it recently!~~

He’s transferring from Computer Science to Mass Comm cos he doesn't like the former after taking it for a couple of weeks! I hope the appeal went through! Did u, did u!? :)

Their fave pose!

The Indians were the real party animals and spenders!


The charming star of the night!

Exposed!

Jon Ong, where were u!?

Butter Factory’s experience tt night was only so so. The music was really average, the crowd was 90% working adults in their late 20s & above and they didn’t had any smoke machines.

No smoke and no gd music equals to un-spectacular partying atmosphere. :( Still no club I went to in Singapore can top Phuture. How sad! Hmmmm, maybe I should open one in the future that will!! What should I name it? The Better Future!? How LAME!!! LOLL.

Before.

After! It was Jon Goh’s virgin clubbing at 21 yrs old!

Never kissed, never clubbed till 21, so innocent can!?

Wen Long was even more high! No lah, he wasn't drunk!
We had barely a few sips of Volka Ribena/Volka Sprite
and ordered orange juice and coke in the end and they
taste so much better! HA!

But really, we mostly went to celebrate for Edward so hope u had a fabulous 21st Birthday! Pls pls pls arrange Bible Study classes with me sooon ultra-hardworking businessman! :)

Partayyy everyday, partayyy everyday!

No lah, seriously, partying is actually very physically draining! I dunno how the working adults do it on a Wed night still manage to survive working 9 to 6 the next day! K-kinda crazy!

Btw, Jamie, Ade, why don't yr take part in the Mango Fashion Bloggers contest!? Mango shopping vouchers to be won! Go go go! Advertisement at top left!

P.S: Varoun can I have the photos soon pretty pretty pls? *pouts* Got them and updated! Thank you! :)

When is Enough, Enough?

2010-09-02T23:17:00.004+08:00

It first started on 7 March 2010 after Fashion In The Sky. We had such a great time.

It was held in YMCA and we had booked a room as the holding area for the models to do their hair & makeup and it was available for some of us to stay over that night.

I had not planned to sleepover and hence did not bring any extra clothes. Adeline had initially thought that she was going to be the only person staying so she asked me to stay too and I agreed, thinking that I can accompany her.

However, it turned out that more pple were staying, of which Adeline and I had no clue of. And guess what? At about 11pm or so, Janet said something like this to me and to me alone when Adeline, Jamie, Elicia and Victor were present, “Wendy, I didn’t know that you were staying over. If I knew you were staying, I wouldn’t have stayed. You always sleep late, later you make noise and disturb me but I need to sleep early. I need to work tmr.”

At that point in time, it was common knowledge among us that Adeline and Jamie usually sleep very late, sometimes even at 6am in the mornings. I usually go to bed earlier, perhaps by 3am. Since Ade and Jamie are like me, night owls, why issit that Janet only said such a thing to me but not to them?

I was pretty hurt by her unwelcoming remarks when all I innocently wanted to do was to accompany Adeline, and plus the fact that there was not really ample space for the 6 of us and I didn’t have all my necessary items with me anyway, I took my things and left near midnight.

After the incident, I did not tell Janet how I felt. I told myself that perhaps she was just tired after a long day. And guess what? While Janet was sound asleep at 2+ am, Ade & Jamie were still up trying to look at the video recordings taken that day. But will Janet ever confront Ade & Jamie the way she confronted me?

And u know what? During the runway show earlier that day, I told Royston not to shout Janet’s name while she is cat walking cos I remembered her saying that that would distract her…

My cell group, E441, started the practice of dedicating each cg meeting or gathering to a particular person just to appreciate him or her and make the person feel special.

And on 16^th April 2010, it was my day. After our youths’ zone meeting at EDB, my cg members gathered around me to give me gifts and appreciate me and I felt really blessed and loved.

Adeline who usually didn’t like to hug even gave me one! :)

Well, they all gathered around me except one, Janet. She stood at one corner 2 metres away from us. In my mind I was like, “okay…”, but I wasn’t offended. I was more concerned about her than anything else and when we were leaving the place, I asked Victor, “Is Janet okay? Issit me? Did I do something wrong?” And Victor assured me that it was something else and not me.

Since Rid could not make it to my appreciation that day, he wrote a poem for me and posted it on a Facebook Note and tagged the rest of my cg members.

I was very touched and happy, so was Rid, but nope, not Janet:

And Rid, being the nice person that he is, tried to appease her:

In my heart I knew that these were not just mere harmless jokes but sarcastic ones. Still, I checked with her politely, just to be sure:

Like what I expected, she admitted that she was being sarcastic. I was already offended at this point in time but I kept my cool and responded nicely. However, she did not know when to cease:

Janet not appreciating me and standing at one corner that day didn’t really affect me but to leave such sarcastic remarks on the poem that Rid had especially written for me out of his kindness and our friendship for my appreciation!?

Does she really think that just because Rid wrote that I had a “golden heart” that he doesn’t know my weaknesses? Does she think that the rest of E441 are unaware of my flaws? The fact of the matter is that everyone can see my flaws clearly; but the difference between them and Janet is that they respect and love me enough not to put me down on a public sphere, especially not on a poem meant to encourage me.

On 3^rd of May, I just had a very emotionally-draining sit down with my aunt to talk things out and was depressed for days afterwards only to have Janet say such things in my face.

Initially, Janet had issues with Kenneth then it was with Benedict then Rid and now it was me. I felt so indignant and I smsed Zoe to seek her help. To which Zoe replied (1^st half of the email):

(intentionally made longer than the frame or the words would be squashed tgt)

Being the good and spiritual cell group leader that Zoe is, she advised me to do it the “Jesus way” - to be patient with Janet and to allow God time to deal with her. And so I did. I did not confront Janet about what she said and asked God for the strength to let go.

If I remembered correctly, her appreciation was in May or June, and I complimented her in front of everyone, about how talented and creative she is and encouraged her to continue to do the same.

Then lo and behold, just as I was recovering from the hurts in May, I was shot down again in June one day when I was simply retweeting some of the quotes that I felt were interesting. Yup. Just because I was retweeting quotes, I stepped on her toes yet again. And this time, she was even more vicious in her words:

I was fuming. I had decided that things had gotten out of hand and if there were discontent between us, especially since we are cg members, we should sit down and talk things out. She agreed and then the next day, changed her mind. Of course, if she didn’t want to meet, I cannot force her. Some told me that it was clearly her fault this time but asked me to let her be. And so I did.

Things got very awkward when we were both in church and at cg meetings. I dared not strike conversations with her; for fear that I would unknowingly antagonize her again. On the inside, I was really struggling. One day, I sat at my desk for half an hour just staring into blank space thinking about what had happened between me and her.

Inspired by what pastor preached about forgiveness and reconciliation in service one day, I sent a long sms telling her how sorry I am for that which had happened between us and asked for her forgiveness, even though right from the start, I do not even know what hideous crime or disservice I had done to her to deserve such malicious treatment.

Of course, she didn’t reply to that msg and when I tried to tweet her, she blocked me. And when she heard that I was upset, she unblocked me, saying, “If it makes you happy, I’ll unblock you.”

Debbie had returned from Australia and we had wanted to play beach volleyball at Sentosa for the longest time and we finally could before she flew back. Since it’s quite hard for just the 2 of us to play, I asked some of them along. Out of a desire to reconcile with Janet, I asked if she wanted to come to play volleyball with us, and she replied saying that she had something else to do.

Then the next day on 28 June, she came but I had no clue prior and I was like “okay… ”. And guess what? After just 5 mins of playing, Janet said, “Can we play Captain’s Ball instead or do something else?” And throughout the volleyball playing, she was clearly unhappy. It was written over her face and I could sense it.

First of all, she told me she wasn’t coming then appeared, probably Debbie asked her come and she didn’t remb to inform me so that was fine. However, playing volleyball tgt was something that Debbie and I had talked about for like one year or something and we finally got to do it that one fine and only day, and out of nowhere she expects us to accommodate her to change our plans just like that just because she didn’t like volleyball?

I can rationalize in my mind that she probably came because she wanted to spend time with Debbie and Jamie (definitely not cos she wanted to play volleyball with me). But could she not have shown a little more respect to what Debbie and I had thought about doing for over a year?

Being the nice person that I am, I sucked it all in and did not tell her that I was unhappy, for the countless time. On the train leaving Sentosa, she complained that her hand was in pain. Out of concern and good will, I asked her, “Issit very painful”? And you know what she replied?, “What do you think!?” in an irritated and angry tone. Even when Wen Long (such a nice and friendly person) tried to encourage her, she got irritated and told him, “How bout I try it on you!?”

I was so pissed but I kept quiet and did not fight back. She had ruined the happy day that I was having.

How ironic that this picture was taken by her.

Since that day I decided that I was not going to try and reconcile our relationship anymore. Because I had did what I could, I tried to befriend her, be nice to her, not confront her even when I’m so hurt by her words. If we are ever going to truly reconcile, it was going to be up to her.

One day, I tweeted that “I cannot be in a cg where I am consistently judged for my past” cos that was what I felt at that moment because I believed that a cg is a spiritual family in which we cannot judge one another.

And you guessed it! I pissed her off, yet again cos she saw what I wrote in someone else’s retweet a few days after:

I was so so so angry that I was about to blog an entry in retaliation when she called. We did not seem to have come to a peaceful resolution and she wanted to sleep already.

I was so burdened that I even contemplated not going to Zoe’s wedding. Of course I couldn’t not go, because I already gave Zoe my word and I love her enough to be there for her on one of the most important days of her life.

I was encouraged by what Pst Darren said to me at the ballroom entrance when he asked how I was and I sighed and said I was surviving, “Surviving is good. Surviving is better than dying. Dying is better than already dead.” Haha. :)

Thankfully, I had such a blast at the wedding and would have been such an idiot if I had not turned up. But naturally, Janet and I did not talk nor took individual photos tgt.

I was grateful that Janet left for Australia in mid-July cos it meant that we had some time to cool off and give each other space. It was such a load off to be free from worrying that I was gonna make her angry again with any small step or words I say whenever I’m near her.

Throughout this time that she was away, I can honestly touch my heart and say that I bear no ill-will or grudge against her and only wish her the very best. When Jonathan Lexing was in Singapore recently, I even asked him how Janet was since they have met up a couple of times in Perth. I also quietly read her blog to find out how she is.

However, despite our physical distance/space/time and my numerous attempts at making good our relationship, her hatred/anger/past grudge towards me had not ceased.

A few days ago, An Xian, the birthday coordinator of our cg sent us a mass message on FB to discuss about the upcoming birthdays. Janet and Jamie went off topic & I was not offended at all:

While I was typing that sentence, I was even thinking in my mind that it was a fun way of talking to Janet again, since we had not talked to each other for months. Did I harbor any ill intentions? Was it not just a harmless and playful joke?

But yet again, for the umpteenth time, I had unknowingly stepped on Janet’s toes and became the target of her spiteful and sarcastic comment, this time on her blog:

Did my joke call for such a personal public attack again? Did Janet spare any consideration about how I would feel when I read that?

Throughout what happened in the last six months, I’ve arrived at this conclusion:

1) Janet does not respect me as a person nor does she give a hoot about my feelings.

2) She will not apologize even when she has said and did so many things that have hurt me in the past and present that have utterly destroyed the friendship we once had because to her, she had done no wrong. In fact, she is “doing justice by teaching me a lesson.”

The right thing to do is probably to continue to suck all this up and do it the “Jesus way” like what Zoe and Pst Darren have taught me but I've decided that that last public comment was the last straw.

Throughout the last six months, I had done my part by apologizing & saying nice things to her, and not confronting her the numerous times that she had offended me. And look what marvelous results I have achieved. :)

Many times when I needed to confide in someone after I was offended by her, I even tell myself not to go to Jamie (even though I usually confide in her when I have problems) cos I know that both of them are very good friends and I don’t want to ruin their relationship.

So many times on so many occasions, I had always spared a thought for Janet and told myself to have a bigger heart.

I don’t hate her now and I don't expect her to befriend me again but I do not condone and will not allow her to continue in the unleash of insensitive, spiteful and uncalled for public remarks that only serve to hurt people and destroy relationships. Many will tolerate it, continue being nice to her and tell me to just ignore her remarks.

But from now on, she had better carefully reflect on the things that she have said, especially on a public platform, and how it hurts not just me, but several other people in our cg and zone(don’t even get me started on that) because I will no longer be as nice or as accommodating as others and continually give in to her nonsense.

Because for once Janet, enough is enough.

A Heavy Heart

2010-06-28T01:56:00.002+08:00

It would have been a great day.

I am burdened by what is happening in my life and by what I see/read/know.

At the end of the day, a stranger's words/actions doesn't really hurt you. It is the words and actions of those you care and matter the most that do. Those whom you think they won't treat you this way when you are trying very hard to make things work and be nice but they do. And it stings... like a snake's bite.

Will I overlook the wounds and the damage done and just forgive and forget? Or will I choose to distant myself from those that I care a lot for but don't reciprocate that care and learn to protect myself instead?

I lie at the crossroads. What I choose to do in the next few weeks or months will significantly alter my life.

Which path will I take?

What kind of person will I become?

Will I become cold or will the warmth of my heart continue to burn?

Will I become the very person that I don't wish to be in the 1st place?

Will I live a fruitful life and be a blessing?

Who will Wendy become?

One thing is for sure, I can't accomplish it by my own human strength.

It is too weak. I, am too weak.

It's about time I get down on my knees...

I Love My BFF!

2010-06-23T01:31:00.002+08:00

I think you guys are looking forward to an update about my boyfriend and I!

Before I do I just wanna say that I’m truly blessed to have friends who stand by me, who give me good advice and love me. :) After unpleasant things happen, I now know who my true friends are whom I can have friendships for life with.

Many smses came and I am grateful, you know who you are. It’s nice to know that friends like you care enough to drop me a msg just to see how I am doing. *touched* And sorry if I didn’t reply some cos I was probably just too emotional and needed some time to chill! And I’m down to only 500 free smses a mth now so tweet or call me instead if u can! :)

To Emily, thanks for sharing yr experience with yr bf to help me get perspective and for being there when I was afraid to take the step to call him and talk things out!

To Xiu, I got yr hug from Washington DC! Am so touched. I missed u! Hope u are doing great! *hugs back*

To Sean & Elaine, thanks for the help the last time as a couple who really wishes Aaron and I stay together. May God bless your imminent marriage. :) I still dunno whether I can help out yet!

To Zoe, my dearest cg leader, thanks for yr smses and the talk we had. I’m so blessed to have an understanding leader like you who is always one step ahead of me in life. Am simply jumping for joy and counting down to yr Fairytale wedding on 4th July!

To Alvin and Catherine, thanks for the words of encouragement and advice that u guys gave us. I think Aaron is very blessed to have you as his leaders too! 10 years of dating must have been tough but you guys went through it, despite the differences… amazing. CONGRATULATIONS on the engagement!! :)) Yippee!

Okay now is the part when I wonder when issit gonna be my turn! Hahaha! Nahhhh, shalll spare my bf the presssuuureeeee.

To my dearest bf, I know many times our relationship can turn out like that:

Dunno why u still can smile sometimes!

And I scare you. (HAHA)

But spending the last 2 days with you have made me realize that we really do love each other despite our difference in personalities and we’re not gonna throw away the last 1.5 years we shared together just like that.

Simply watching a show with you on yr laptop or mine and watch you laugh makes me happy…Thanks for filling my love tank! I think it has 10,000 love units now. :)

I’m sorry for all the times that I’ve bruised your ego. I’m sorry for the things that I had said that I should know better not to say.

I fell in love with you because you are smart, knowledgeable, patient, cute and handsome. Sometimes my anger and frustrations get the better of me… but at the end of the day, I know I still want to be by your side and go through life together with you. (Unless you choose not be cute and smart anymore! Hehe!)

I know we have a bright future together because we are both committed to love and to trust and respect each other like what Alvin has taught us.

God is teaching us to have mercy and I believe we have passed the test this time round.

I know you may not be good in words, but I will be patient to wait for the day that you will know what to say and what to do; to wait for you to draw closer to God and bring us forward.

But for now, we are each other’s BFF, so we’re gonna give each other time and space to chill and grow at our own pace.

I love my bfffff! =D

So bff, shoud I catch the bouquet at Zoe’s wedding? Should I should should I!? KIDDING. =p

Congratulations to the start of your working life officially on Friday!! I hope yr collegues will treat you well and no gals hotter than me will hit on u! Hahaha!

Say hello to your new Web Designer pple! Not just freelancing anymore. So proud of you baby! Xoxo. (Seeeee I know how to do this brushing ego stuff! =D)

And I love you dear friends! Thanks so much for being my life, I certainly can’t do life without you guys in it. You are all one of God’s greatest gift to me.

*BIG SQUISHY HUGS from Ms.Huggable Lady Wen!* =p

I Was

2010-06-13T22:43:00.001+08:00

I am a believer.

I believe in love, I believe in marriage and in a “happily ever after” and having the happiness and warmth of family.

And so I fight; I get disappointed and upset but I pick myself up time and time again telling myself if I stick around for just a little longer, things will start to change and get better.

I get really hurt but I hung on tight to my dream, I didn’t give up.

But on a day like this when I get so tired of fighting and believing, the words of affirmation that I need are nowhere to be found.

No one is holding my hands, looking into my eyes and telling me that, “Everything is gonna be okay.”

When I stopped believing, I thought he wouldn’t. I hoped he would tell me to give it one more try. But he isn’t.

I thought he would be a believer when I’m losing my ability to believe. But his lack of action just tells me that he is less of a believer than I am.

Action or the lack of it just speaks so loud. It’s deafening.

Where is he just when you needed him to stand up like a man and quickly do so some damage control? Where is that determination to make things happy and good again that you wished he had when you didn’t?

No sms, no phonecall, no tweets, no writing on yr FB wall, no private msg, no email, nothing.

And so, after all tissue papers and the hours of hours of waiting for nothing, I tell myself, “That’s it. I can’t go on like this anymore.”

Everything was but just a dream. The reality of it eludes me to the point where I don’t believe it anymore.

It’s all too late.

Now, I was a believer. And I was a really determined believer.

I was.

Toy Story 3 The Great Escape!

2010-06-12T16:30:00.005+08:00

Toy Story is back again! In this 3rd installment, Andy the owner is leaving for college… so what lies the fate of Woody, Buzz and the rest of the toys?

And guess what, In this latest creation from Disney Pixar, there are 14 new characters!

And here are some of my favorites! They are soooooooo cute okay!!

Very huggable!!!

OMG, Lots-O’-Huggin’ Bear!?? Everyone who knows me knows that I love getting hugged and hugging pple! I think Lots-O’-Huggin’ Bear is just like me! Hahaha. And it’s even quite pinkish in color!

Awwwww….

Isn’t that about the cutest unicorn u’ve ever seen!? And just look at that pair of the most un-disgusting & adorable nostrils in the world! <3 <3 =D

“Hello hello baby u called? I can’t hear a thing!”

Looks familiar doesn’t it!? This looks like one of the telephone toys I had when I was a kid! But now that I’m older, I guess I can wear it on my head like Lady Gaga did in ‘Telephone’! HAHA!

Here’s the trailer!

The scene where Ken met Barbie must be my favorite moment in the trailer! My heart fluttered and it reminded me of the moment when my bf and I had first looked at each other in the eyes and we had the “sparkle”! Hehe. The expression on his face when he first set eyes on Barbie? Priceless!

Can’t wait to see the actual movieeee! You can catch Toy Story 3 Movie starting from 17^th June 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!

Xoxo!

Ale-alejandro Ale-alejandro!

2010-06-09T01:57:00.003+08:00

The world premiere of Gaga’s latest video, Alejandro!

It’s sick, but damn, it’s so artistic!

I love the setting! The imagery is so strong! The snow, the heart, the “Nazis”.

Love the widow headdress and the red latex nun suit!

And I think Gaga just made “mushroom hair” trendy! Lol.

Don’t have to try and understand the whole thing… I don’t! Only Gaga and probably the producer Steven Klein do!

But if you really want to know what’s going on in Gaga’s universe, this is what she said on her recent interview on Larry King Live bout the video: “homoerotic military theme”…”a celebration of my love and appreciation for the gay community, my admiration of their bravery, their love for one another and their courage in their relationships.”

“It’s all about where I’m from and love of theater and love of music and love of the lie in art, and Steven really knows and understands that…So we’re making a beautiful video, and I’m so excited.”

She adds, “[It's about the] purity of my friendships with my gay friends, and how I’ve been unable to find that with a straight man in my life. It’s a celebration and an admiration of gay love—it confesses my envy of the courage and bravery they require to be together. In the video I’m pining for the love of my gay friends—but they just don’t want me to be with them.”

You would never had figured that out without her explanation right!? I thought the dead guy in the coffin was symbolic of Alexander McQueen or sumthin’!

And see, no advertising of any products in this vid!

Gaga is in a league of her own, and we’re all just trying to play catch up.

What do I know? The MEN must HURT when they’re smashed onto the floor like that by other men! =D I think that’s symbolic of sex change, I think. :)

Tell me what you think! Comments!

You popped my heart seams, all my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

2010-05-19T12:35:00.002+08:00

She was run over by a truck and left to bleed.

And I know that it’s complicated

But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
WOW

Smell the Flowers & Admire the Rainbow

2010-05-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

It's time to be single again.

Smell the flowers and admire the rainbow.

I can do this.

Even if I can't, I probably should die trying.

I suppose I don't mean that literally.

Jesus, come back quickly, plsss? Life is much harder than I had expected it to be.

And if I take my own life, I might just end up in hell and I don't want that.

I did promise my blog readers that I won't take my own life.

Breaking that would make me such a big ass promise breaker.

But at least I'll have a million people reading this entry in no time and psychologists can analyze my blog and see how a crazy person thinks.

Let's play a love game, do you want love or you want fame? Cos it seems like you can't have the best of both worlds.

I mean, which person who has committed suicide had talked about it on their blog before he/she jumped?

I should really scrap my dreams of getting married to the love of my life and starting a happy and warmth family of my own.

It seems like the more I think about it everyday, the harder I fall and the more painful and dreary life becomes.

I have let my passions consumed me, quite literally.

And all I'm left with now are the scars on my heart and my broken dreams.

You know, I have a relationship with my blog.

I can scream, yell and use cuss words when I'm really upset or I can be damn happy and be skipping around on my entries. Whatever it is, my blog loves me and I love my blog.

My blog doesn't judge me or expect me to become someone else. But human beings do.

And I'm trying not to blame them. I mean, who wouldn't want to judge Wendy Ang?

Everything she says or does just make people want to judge her. She screams "Judge Me!" all over her forehead.

She's not who we expect her to be.

She can be better. She can be wiser. Stronger. Tougher. Less emotional. Less emotional. Less emotional. Wait, have I said that 3 times already? Less emotional. More hardworking, more responsible, earn more money, more everything. No wait, LESS emotional. Oh ya, and definitely less attention seeking too. Ah yes, smile more, definitely smile more.

I mean, c'mon, she's a professing Christian. And she's a freaking 22-yr-old working adult.

She should know better right?

Oh oh, and how come she always sound so negative on her blog?

A Christian needs to say positive things and be an encouragement to others reading man.

I thought the title of this entry is 'Smell the Flowers & Admire the Rainbow'? Huh?

There, I feel better already. Blogging it out just makes me happy.

LIVE with it. :)

But I Don't Want To Be Like This

2010-05-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

I was really happy and then I saw what someone did and I immediately feel hurt.

Me: Why do I desire to be loved by people so badly?

Aaron: 因为你缺乏爱。

Me: But I don't want to be like this... *stares into space*

God, you got to help this emotional wreck.

FLASHERS!

2010-05-12T01:57:00.015+08:00

Have u seen the Lady Gaga Flash Mob in Madrid yet!?

The dancers are fab okay!??? Check out their moves and their costumes!

I sure hope Mother Monster sees it and goes to Madrid!

And then it hit me...

CHC should totally do a flash mob when we move to Suntec Convention come March next year!!

It will go down in our church history as the inaugural flash mob by a bunch of brave and crazy members and be reminiscence for the next 50 years or something!?

How's that!?

By then, flash mobs would have become a classic!

Maybe I should email Ryan my idea and get it going!! =D

I can already imagine the City News Headline!

"500 Brave Souls Flash Mob to CHC's New Home"

I'm in!

The participants can dress up as prominent people in church!!!

Guess who I would wanna dress up as!???? :)

If only she can be the one leading the flash mob! Oh yeah.

P.S: I know, I am totally thinking further than the imminent Asia Conference !

My Rich & Crazy Friends from INDIA!

2010-05-03T17:41:00.013+08:00

I made these 2 new friends in the last few months and they are both from India!

They inspire me shitloads.

Both have left their country to pursue their undergraduate studies in NUS, and both come from extraordinary backgrounds.

I'm not gonna name them just in case they’re shy and wish to remain anonymous! :)

The first, his father is a businessman who owns tea plantations in India and earns millions of dollars every year. He has many workers and servants in his big houses!

He is 19 years old, the only son in his family and hence, the de-facto inheritor of his father's business! Yes, think Paris Hilton.

The amazing thing however, is that though he is born with a sliver spoon, he doesn't want to just live in his father's shadow... He doesn't want to take over his business even after he graduates!

At least not without 1st making it out on his own!

If I were him, I can imagine myself just lying in the comfort of my big couch and have my servants feed me grapes and fan me all day! Think Cleopatra! Hahaha! Travel to a foreign land to mug like crazy and having to fend for myself? Forget about it!

So it amazes me that my friend wants to set up a tea business of his own in Singapore,despite his father’s disagreement...

And the catch is that he has to make more money than his father in a few years, and hence "justifiable", otherwise he will have to go back to India and be the Director of his dad's company.

Not an easy feat! In fact, highly challenging and yet he believes it is gonna happen and is taking steps towards it!

And someone who is from as good a background as his had this to say about me:

Far and wide have I sought,
For a maiden with a golden heart.
Billions of souls have I sought,
For a dreamer with a limb on humble Earth,
And another on the sublime heavens,
Perhaps she dwells in the Elysian Lawns!

And after decades of seeking,
Behold I found my magic mirror
And I asked:
“Mirror-mirror on the wall,
Who is the fairest of them all?”
And the mirror simply replied:
“Wendy is the fairest of them all!”

“Describe her,” I commanded:
“Seek the one who is pure at heart.
Seek that innocence in the eye,
That you know cannot lie.
Seek the soul that’s untouched by the evil,
Seek the maiden that lives among the mortals,
Yet has her base on the heavens.”

The hunt for the pure one resumed,
It was a tiresome journey.
It’s said that good things come to those,
Who wait.
Alas that was true … for we did find her.
And was blessed by her presence,
We found Wendy Ang.

I teared.

There are people in this world who value my worth and he has expressed it so creatively & genuinely to me in this poem despite our brief friendship.

I love you my friend. And you had better get yr tea business going or I’m gonna kick your butt. :)

And just when I thought one crazy friend from India is already enough, God sends me another one!

He attended Fashion In the Sky in March and I subsequently got to know him, thanks to Facebook! =) We met up once and he turns out to be A REAL CRAZY DUDE!

He talks with an unbelievable amount of energy! And I thought I was the Energizer Bunny but he, my friends, beat me hands down anytime! Imagine that!

He is also extremely intelligent and intellectual, and I do mean extremely! You will have to talk to him yourself to know what I mean!

His father passed away when he was really young and his mum is a medical doctor!

He started trading and generating his wealth when he was 17 years old. 17!!!!??????

He attended Harvard summer school. Harvard leh!!! The top university in the world!

And he owns a company in Boston in the United States doing research on renewable sources of energy and makes lots of money every month without needing to be there all the time and he is only as old as I am, 22!

All that achievements and you know what he tells me????

That I inspire him!

He called last night after reading my blog entry and you know what’s one of the best things he told me?

“When I make it to Times’ 100, I’m gonna have a party and I’ll invite Lady Gaga and you to attend.”

I laughed and replied, “That’ll be great!” And when I make to the list before you do, I’ll invite you too! Hahaha.”

I'm Wendy in Wonderland. :) Yes, my hair defies gravity! =D

It's friendships like these that touch my heart and make my life meaningful.

I can come from a humble background that is a stark contrast from theirs but they wouldn't think any less of me as a person and at the end of the day, we can still love each other for who we are and mutually inspire each other.

How about you? Do u have such friends too? Share with me in the comments, I wanna know! :)

Thank you my friends! <3 *group hug* HAHAHA! =p

A New Day Has Dawned

2010-05-02T09:57:00.011+08:00

My bf and I are good now btw, just in case you're worried or concern!

Many challenges have been taking place in my life the last few months. But it's all good. 1st of May 2010 marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life:

From this day forward, I will never wish that I can go to heaven quickly just cos living in this earth is too much for me to take.

For this day forward, I declare that I am free. Doesn't mean it won't be challenging from now on, but it just means that I am starting anew on a better foothold.

And I will continue to grit my teeth and fight. When I fall, I will get up again, and again and again and again and again.

Today, I make a commitment to myself and to you reading that I will never take my ~~own~~ life which I had thought of in the past. I'm not even the sole proprietor of it to begin with. :)

That would have meant that the battle was lost, that I had not fulfilled what I say to you today. And I'll be kidding you if I told you that the battle ahead is easy.

Trust me, it's not. It's in fact, very, very intense at times. My enemies want to shut me down. They want me to stop trying. They want me to stop influencing. They want me to just throw in the towel and give in. But I declare today that they will not win.

If you are reading this, what you can do to help is to say a prayer for me and be encouraging towards me, pls, I beseech you, that keeps me alive more than you know it. Thank you. :)

If you are reading this, and you hate me, I can only say that one day I hope that you will come around. Because I didn't mean to upset you and hating doesn't make your life a better place. :)

I'm gonna break the ceiling.

Society and people try to box you in to conform to their image and their norms and deem you as a freak when you don't but the fact of the matter is this - You can never attain happiness or find joy in trying to become the person that other people want you to be, when that person is not who you would like for yourself deep down inside.

Society doesn't like people who are different, or who do things differently, who choose different paths, because many times to "them", 'different' is equivocal to wrong and that is furthest from the truth.

There are more than 6 billion different people in the world. Each with different abilities, interests, habits and dreams, who are we kidding?

Don't force yourself to give up the music that you so love just because they say it's not practical and just do what they want even though you know you will be terribly unhappy doing it. Don't. Resist the temptation to conform.

It's easy to conform. It's easy to not be criticized and looked down by people, very easy.

Go ahead and be fearless, be the person that you were meant to be all along. They are gonna hate you for it. But be fearless anyway. Chase after your dreams like you were gonna die tomorrow and don't let those dreamkillers stop you.

They'll catch up.

Think Lady Gaga. Her parents were so upset with her initially for wearing little clothes and prancing around in clubs (I think most Singaporeans would too), but look at her now, she's on the cover of Times Magazine for being one of top 100 Most Influential People in The World, just next to Bill Clinton.

Cool or what!? :)

I have not read or bought a single Times Magazine for more than 5 years but I'm gonna go pick up that one. Cos Lady Gaga has influenced me to.

Now, her parents have caught up. And they are more than supportive.

Can you just imagine for one second if she had easily given up performing years ago just because her parents were not supportive of it?

Yes, the world would be a dull place without that free bitch in it. Just like the world will be a dull place without you in it. No, not the 'you' that others try and force you to become. The 'you' that you truly desire and enjoy being, that's the undiluted 'you'.

Definitely, love much and give much in the process but never forget to love yourself too in the meantime cos it can only work both ways. That is what it means to love your neighbor as you love yourself.

You can only do something that comes from your heart. Anything else will not last or it will only make you damn miserable after a while. And the worse thing that can happen is that rather than just kissing the frog, you end up marrying it. Don't! The prince is waiting for you!

Let's just face it, you will never be happy in being a people-pleaser and you can never meet up to all their expectations and demands.

Because if you know Economics, there are unlimited demands but only limited supply. It is not going to stop.

You can only become the person that God wants you to be and you need to release yourself from societal expectations for you to just be like everyone else you see.

Don't become diluted and lose your uniqueness.

Dig deep. Find out who you are, what you stand for as a person and where your passions lie.

And chase after it with every fiber of your being. That's what you were created to do.

You are gonna be mocked at, despised, criticized, rejected, unappreciated, misunderstood and hated. Even by those whom you call friends, by those whom you call family. Very, very painful. Extremely.

Do it anyway.

Because in the final analysis, it's not really between you and them, it's between you and you and you and Him.

At the end of the day, you want to touch your heart and say, I am happy with myself, I am at peace with myself. I love myself. I am who I am supposed to be and live is worth living. Life is so fulfilling.

It's a new day for me, my dear friends and readers.

I wish that your days will be filled with much love, happiness and purpose.

That doesn't mean there's not gonna have suffering and pain along the way. It just means that when the rubber meets the road, it's all gonna be worthwhile.

The dash between the year that you were born and the year that you are gonna die is gonna be a life lived beautifully, authentically, happily and lovingly. And that will effect in more of other such lives.

Because you become powerful and influential when you are hammered and shaped into the very person that you were made to be and many others' lives will be deeply touched and impacted.

There's not another of you in the world. You're the only one. So don't give in to that opposing force that tries to make you fit in like a mass factory product and conveniently tells you, "That's life, just live with it and shut up."

Whatever for?

No one knows or understands your dreams more than you yourself. No one.

You are the best you and there's nothing they can do about it.

So you can be free, truly, truly free.

I will look back and remember this day and this entry. May you have these memorable pivotal points in your life too.

May you find your niche and not be squeezed by "them" into an ugly box that you can't even fit into!

The sky is the limit, and the world? Your playground.

The desire to die quickly was me trying to take the easy way out. But not anymore.

Let's enjoy the journey together cos I still want to live and fulfill my purpose here on earth before I go home to be with Jesus. And I have a great one. I can feel the strong sense of God's calling upon my life... always have.

I think I have a looottt more to accomplish, my time is not up and I will live a good many years. :)

YAYS! Haha. <3

Much Love,
Lady Wen

"Boundaries don't keep other people out... they fence you in. Life is messy... that's how we're made."

2010-04-28T03:04:00.000+08:00

Lots of tissue paper, some bible reading and 2 episodes of Grey's Anatomy later... I gave in. I texted and called him!

And then, I got frustrated again and hanged up.

My alarm clock is set to 7am but I'm not even sleepy!

Now, back to more Grey's Anatomy. It's my therapy.

Don't get me? Read the title again. :)

Because "Happily Ever Afters" Only Exist in Fairytales

2010-04-27T23:40:00.002+08:00

I was so sure that he was the one for me. Maybe I was wrong, maybe he isn't the one for me afterall. Maybe I'm not even the right one for him, *sarcastic smile*.

New Love!

2010-04-21T00:20:00.008+08:00

Advertorial

I haven't been blogging much, have I? Well… I was kinda afraid of telling the world about my new lover. I was afraid of what you might think of me. Yes, I’m human too.

The old one kinda bores me sometimes… so I had to move on to someone new, someone, fresh. Someone that will never quarrel with me.

My Hubstation! Hubber hubber!

He, my friends, is a Digital Video Recorder (DVR) that comes with 160GB of hard disk space which is equivalent to 80 hours of recording! Now, no other lover would have as much holding power as him! =P

I never have to miss my fave shows again even when I’m not home cos I can just record and watch them whenever I want to, thanks to Starhub Cable TV!!

If you are the 539,000 (figure from I.S Mag) Singaporeans households that are part of my lover’s club, I know u're loving it too! But wait, that makes 4 million other households who watch nothing else but Channel 5, 8, U, Okto and what nots!? U dunno the fab programs you’re missing out on on other channels!

Oh my gee, you can’t miss Glee!

Yes, It’s bout a bunch of high school kids but before u say, “CHEY!”, I can assure u that it’s so much more sophisticated and believable than High School Musical!

It deals with the dramas in life that many of us go through, teenage pregnancy (okay maybe not that many of us! haha), divorce, fights among classmates, issues with parents, BGRs and more but the my fave thing about the show is definitely the humor, oh oh wait, I said the show is sophisticated… it’s really about desire and passion! ;)

Glee is about wanting something and doing whatever it takes to get it! Now I’m sure you can identify with that, you over-achieving Singaporeans! =p

I can go on and on about what shows u’re missing out like So You Think You Can Dance (I don’t think I can dance anymore after watching them! They’re mad awesome dancers! *pales in comparison), CSI, Grey’s Anatomy (OMG IT’s SOOOO GOOD, better than orgasm ladies, KIDDING) and many more but I shall not bore you with it, you can the drift!

I didn’t even had to waste any time to physically queue at the Starhub customer servies centres, nor did I have to be put on hold on 1627! Loves it!

I just had to take 3 simple steps:

1. Check out Starhub.com.sg to see which are the basic groups I want to subscribe to

2. Give my friend Alvin (a hardcore ~~Man U~~ Liverpool fan! Shit, now all the ~~Liverpool~~ Man U fans will boycott him!) a call

3. And meet with him to sign a form. He can basically meet you anywhere in Singapore to your convenience! I met with him for like 5 seconds at Expo after our service! ;)

Then a technician from Starhub came to my place to install it and voila!

Talk about a hassle-free lover! And one that will always be there to entertain you 24/7, make you laugh and cry, educate you about life, update you on the latest happenings just by pressing his buttons? Where to find? =D

Not even my bf can do that! Okay lah, at least my he can hug and whisper sweet nothings to me but my Hubstation can’t! Hahaha! Oh oh, but when my bf is boring I can’t fast forward but when the tv show is or when commercials come up, I can!! The power is all in my hands! Take that u advertisers! I’m not watching yr commercials, neh nanny poo poo! But if u put it online, like, on blogs, I will! =p

Now if you’ve never subscribed to Starhub Cable TV before and you must think that such efficient service and lovely dovey must come with a hefty price right? WRONG! I got mine at

50% discount!

HALF PRICE!

And service charge, installation fees and rental of the set top box?

ALL WAIVED!

FREEEEEEEEEE!

免费!

Kosong!

Going to the service centre won’t even

get you such a good deal lor!

So if you want to enjoy such unbelievable cheap and good service, or u simply need to find out more, just give

this handsome guy, Alvin, a call at

94521900!

During godly hours of course! Ideally between 1.30 to 10pm! He’s single btw! =p My apologies guys, he’s not gay… And cougars? Sorry, I don’t think you are his type either.

And being my blog reader comes with it, hem hem, privileges, tell Alvin that you saw this advertisement on my blog and he’ll throw in a free channel of your choice like HBO, Star Movies, etc, for 6 mths!

Now if you may excuse me, I need to go make some love…

With Horatio!

He’s almost God-like in CSI Miami lor! Even when the villains point a gun at him, he's still so calm and cool one!

Let me know if Alvin is like that too

when he’s serving you k!! =)

P.S: To all my readers from Malaysia, Brunei, Japan, Australia, USA and more, thanks for the support! It's so encouraging to know that u want to read my blog! And for those stuck in Europe due to the Icelandic volcano ash? I've heard much about your plight though I'm here in tiny S'pore! May the ashes clear up sooon so your travel plans won't be affected anymore! Xoxo!

If my boyfriend likes it, he should put a ring on it! And... the next Miss Singapore Universe to be!

2010-03-18T14:56:00.014+08:00

I’m counting down to 16 April cos that’s my boyfriend’s final day in SMU! Hopefully he will be employed very soon and start earning a decent $2.5 to $3k every month… then… we can get married earlier! Tee hee!

I’ve always wanted to formally tell the world about him… he’s really a very talented man. He does web designing, graphic design and video editing. He also aced his Computing in JC and is a programming genius! I tell you, whenever his project mates dunno how to program, he’ll be the man they count on! Just last year, the iPhone application that he and his project mates wrote won some Stand Chart award, $2k per person!

The hottest model at Fashion In The Sky, woo hoo!

On top of his many talents, he’s a very, very nice guy. And that is also both his greatest strength and his greatest weakness. People, like myself (HAHA), are inclined towards taking him for granted. I can’t even tell you the countless times that business owners approached him for video editing, design, etc, ask for discounts and he agrees to them! I’m usually not very happy when he does that. :) Hello, my future wedding is at stake! And not to mention the 2 words, “Spoil market!”

I have a secret desire for him to transfer to my zone! Oops! It’s not a secret anymore, *poses with hand on mouth*! I know he’ll have so much fun and have a great time here and…. we could really benefit from his many talents! Tooooo many people marrying out of my zone already, it’s time for people to marry in for a change! And I certainly don’t mind being the history maker! Hiak hiak hiak! Shout out to Vanessa Wong: Pls don’t leave DT zone! Ask JX to come! Hahaha!

And yes, back to the topic on marriage… Time to talk about my dream… “I WANT TO HAVE A BOYFRIENDDDDD… I WANT TO GET MARRIED!!!!!!! I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN!!!” Hahahahhaha. Kidding!

The best wedding is not one you can pay yourself, it's the best one when everything is sponsored! Just like Xiaxue's!

See the place so atas one. And finally I see her father.... how come Xiaxue talks about her mum on her blog but not her dad? Hmmm... Photo from http://demoments.sg/.

I saw some very ingenious wedding gowns online.. they come with POCKETS! Lazy to credit the sources so pardon me!

Sort of a androgynous, elegant look?

It’ll be so fabulous! I’ll be able to keep my mobile phone with me and do real time tweeting! I can also answer phone calls from ignorant guests who can’t find the wedding venue! No, pls don’t call me on my wedding day, I’ll be terribly busy and I'll go mad if ten people starts calling me and asking which floor, how to come, etc! I will give good directions on my wedding invitations no worries and most likely Aaron will be the one designing it! *wide grin*

I think Janet would love this. :) She likes ribbons. :)

Tissue papers in the pocket will also be a must! In case I tear after saying my vows, which I think, I’m very capable of considering how I view marriage as the day I start a family filled with warmth and happiness! And…. I HAD BETTER NOT SNEEZE ON MY WEDDING DAY, GAWD, THAT WOULD BE SO UNGLAM AND EMBARASSING! *AH CHOO!!!*

I can't wear this, my legs are too ugly to be seen!

I have the boobs to pull this off! Hehehe!

That said, I don’t think such wedding gowns will be cheap… BUT, it’s free to dream! =)

Annabel was so kind, she was talking on FB about her experience in a gym toilet where some aunties were discussing about how to satisfy their husbands….

My relatives have neverrrr in a million years praised me like that before! Lol.

For those that don’t know who Annabel is, she won the Most Gorgeous Female 2009! She also kindly modeled for us at FITS. We were in the same School of Theology batch in 2008. I’ve never met another like her, gorgeous yet humble, smart and yet so willing to volunteer herself, sophisticated, friendly and ever so encouraging!

That million dollar smile...

She’s also one of the finalists in Miss Singapore Universe 2010! No, not the Ris Low one, that’s Miss World Singapore! I’m definitely rooting for you to win girl! Check out the RazorTV interview she did a few months back!

[Video removed cos stupid RazorTV's video are all automatically played, very annoying I know, prob to hike up their poor viewership (I was paid money to do a focus group with regards to online video channels, Razor TV in particular, I would know!), even my genius programmer bf can't make it NOT play auto. But u can still watch it by clicking here! Yes, I still love you Annabel! Go girl go! :)]

Soooooo charming right!? =) Annabel, maybe you should be the next senior pst of CHC, u fit all the criteria - good-looking, 25 yrs old, smart, anointed, contemporary… Hahaha, kidding lah! =D Following yr blog, love your entries, keep em’ coming! Xoxo!

You've been a very bad girl. A very very bad, bad girl Wen Wen!

2010-03-17T02:02:00.013+08:00

I shall tone this down because my friends have kindly warned me about how raw anger leads to folly and so this is my attempt to bring a message across without cursing and swearing. She is definitely entitled to her own opinions, no doubt about that, and so am I, thank you very much.

FYI, I really like her singing. She was one of the finalists that almost made it into the Top 24 of the last Singapore Idol. Yes, the one that fell down the staircase on National TV after she found out that she didn't make the cut. Not that most of us can remember anyway! =)

WOW, SO SMART. =)

OH WOW, the analysis that Maressa made is so factual and accurate! Please log in to your Facebook and read all about the wonderful article! All this nonsense shit about Jack Neo is nothing but a "set up", it's actually all fake so let's rejoice! Woo hoo!! *pops champagne*

I'm amazed that the journalists and the editors were so intelligent to spend hours and hours writing about Jack Neo, waiting outside his house just hoping to get a scoop when it's all but a set up! Aiyo, Straits Times, how could you be so gullible to fall into Jack Neo's trap!? I thought you were smarter than that! I thought you could be "trusted"!

And and.... I'm so astounded that my pastor, who just won the Young Global Leader Award, actually bothered to take time out of his packed schedule to counsel Jack and Irene when all these were simply nothing but Jack's attempt to create more publicity for himself! Pastor, how could you win the YGL award and be a top scholar when you're actually so dumb!?

And Foyce, OH MY GAWD FOYCE, YOU WENT TO LODGE A POLICE REPORT AGAINST JACK FOR HARASSING YOU? Oh no....................... you do know that making a false police report can end you up in jail? Say bye bye to your singing career! *pricks the bubble*

I merely typed 2 paragraphs and you know what she replied? =)

*Turns to 5-yr-old cousin*,

"What happens when you don't like what you're seeing on the newspapers boy?"

"Flip to the next page jie jie!"

"And what would you do when you don't like the news you're reading online?"

"Oh, I just close the browser jie jie or don't read lor. Or go play my Pet Society!

No point getting irritated over it mah. =) "

" Wow di di, you are so incredibly mature and smart for your age! =) "

No. 1 - You can CHOOSE what you want to put "in your face." It's entirely up to you. If you're damn irritated with it, common sense tells you that if you want to be angry, you should be angry with who? The journalists who wrote the articles of course. They were the ones who wanted to write about it, partly because they want to sell more newspapers. If not, why don't you call the boss of Straits Times a "leech"? Kind of a double standard don't you think? =)

No. 2 - Oh wow, I insulted you when I didn't even specifically say that you were a naysayer! I was talking about naysayers in general, Oops! I guess you feeling insulted must mean that you really acknowledge yourself as one! =)

Sorry I stepped on your toes Maressa! Honey Bee to Lady Wen:
"You've been a very bad girl.
A very very bad, bad girl Wen Wen!"

Wait there's more!

No. 3 - The movie hasn't even come out and she's already infuriated. Wait till the movie comes out, if it really does, she's gonna go boomz! No one, not even Jack Neo himself knows whether he will definitely make a movie out of this whole thing yet. It's just an idea! And look at her very friendly reaction! =) She "honestly has no need to be angry" at all indeed! *round of applause* And... What kind of legacy is she leaving behind for her kids when they read this blog entry 20 years later? An awesome one! About how she hated someone and called him names who is completely unrelated to her and has done her no wrong!

No. 4 - Movie goers who would want to watch his movie are forced against their own wills to go! Oh man, Jack, how could you force me to watch your movies for so many years!? So incredibly low class you know! Stop smoking people to go watch your movies already! I will tell all my friends to boycott your movies! Especially the one that will be related to yr affair! Shame on you! And... throw away your Cultural Medallion Award pls! It means nothing to Maressa! You know why? Cos she wants to turn a blind eye to any of the good in this whole thing, only because she chose to. =)

Before a particular friend accuses me of being "negative" on my blog , here are in my opinion THE BEST photos taken at Fashion In The Sky by a photographer that goes by the name of Watii, I dunno who she is but just so you know, they're are not taken by me!

Serena Grace, my fave model! Just look at that pretty face of hers!

Sweet Becky darling. Now you can't untag yourself anymore! Muahaha. =p

Love the "damsel in distress" look on Clara!

Megan is chio to the max!

A very confident Weini!

Janet, fierce! *paws up*

And are you ready for D best FITS photo of all the gazillion photos that were taken?

*drumroll pls!*

TADA!

A perfect FIT for the theme!

Loves to the photographer!!! Whoever you are! =)

And please don't become famous, get into a scandal and then use it to create art in the future alright!? It's gonna infuriate some itchy pussys. Yeah, I mean the Pussycat Dolls.

Jack Neo’s Confession & Gaga’s Latest Crazyyy Video!

2010-03-12T19:11:00.006+08:00

I tweeted Jack Neo my blog add on Wed & Thurs and he might have been inspired after reading it because…. he had just openly shared a confession on his blog today! =p Hahaha. I translated it into English for my non-Mandarin speaking blog readers as well as for those who suck in Chinese! Haha, I’m not saying that mine is perfect! =p

Confession 告白

I am very sorry for all the things that I have done. 我对我所做的一切感到非常抱歉。

I have a good wife and a happy family but I did not treasure it, causing myself to land in such a situation today. 我有一个好太太和幸福的家庭，但我却没有好好珍惜，搞到今天这个下场。

My betrayal had deeply hurt my wife and children, and I am regretfully sorry and sorrowful. The thing that touches me the most is that my wife, in her most painful moment, grit her teeth and chose to forgive me and I am very thankful for her graciousness and love towards me. By not leaving and choosing to cling unto me, she had allowed me to keep our family intact. 我的背叛，深深伤害了老婆也深深伤害了孩子的心，我非常的抱歉惭愧和难过，最令我感动的是，老婆在她最痛的时候，仍然咬紧牙根，选择了原谅我，我很感恩她的宽容和爱，因为她的不离不弃，让我保住了我们家的完整。

After understanding the disappointment felt by my parents, siblings, as well as friends, old schoolmates and relatives who have trusted in me, fans and movie buffs who have supported me, I really feel extremely ashamed. I have let everyone down and brought it upon myself. 至于我的父母和兄弟姐妹，还有一路来信任我的亲戚朋友老同学和风雨不改支持我的影迷粉丝，了解他们对我的失望之后，我真的感到无地自容。我辜负了大家，咎由自取。

An extra-martial relationship is a family’s personal affair and many have told me that as long as my wife and family forgives me, it already enough; that I do not need to care about anything else. But to ponder over it, for the past twenty over years, all of you had followed and grew up together with my television programs and movies; were familiar with and caring towards me, giving me your unreserved support and encouragement, how can I treat all of you as outsiders? Hence, my wish is that I may receive your forgiveness as well. 婚外情是家事，很多人也告诉我，只要老婆家人原谅就足够了，其他一概不必理会。但是想想，过去二十几年来，你们跟着我的电视和电影作品一起成长，如此的熟悉我关心我，对我毫无保留的信任和支持，我怎能把你们也当外人呢？所以能获得你们的原谅也是我的愿望。

There is a saying, that ‘one will reap whatever they sow’. In the past, I’ve often used this line in scripts to strengthen the plots in my movies; little did I know that this time, the saying came true in my own life. ‘What man are doing, heaven is watching’, don’t ever think that retribution is not real and don’t ever think that one can hide in the dark to do evil things and “heaven” won’t see it. My plight had proved just that. 有一句话说:「人种的是什么，收的也是什么。」以前经常用这句话来当台词强化情节，没想到这次竟然应验在自己的身上，“人在做，天在看”，千万不要不相信报应，也千万不要以为躲在黑暗的地方做坏事“天”就看不到，我的下场足以证明。

This saga to me, is a very painful, as well as a very valuable awakening, allowing me to always remember the importance of cherishing my wife and family because they are life’s most precious treasure. 这件事对我来说，是一个非常痛苦但也是非常珍贵的醒悟。让我牢牢记住，好好珍惜太太和家人的重要，因为他们是你人生中最宝贵的宝藏。

Irene and I will continue to work hard to cultivate a successful and fulfilled marriage. I will also be very cautious of my words, actions and the way I treat all women, preventing misunderstandings from arising; and to be even more faithful to my wife, putting my family as a top priority. 美凤和我会一起继续努力，经营成功和美满的婚姻，我也会更加小心自己的言行举止和对待所有女生的方式，避免引起误会，也要对老婆更加的忠心，一切以家庭为主。

There is no way to turn back time and eradicate the wrongs that I have done. I am a human being that makes mistakes. Though I have admitted my misgivings from the onset, I would still like to plead that all of you can forgive me, and to give me a second chance. 我犯的错已经回不了头，我是一个凡人，会犯错，虽然我在第一时间已经承认了我的过错，但是对于关心我的人，我还是要在一次的祈求你们的原谅，给我一次重生的机会。

Although my wife and children had forgiven me, our relationship will still take some time to mend. I would also like to specially thank the people who have loved, encouraged and supported me during this period. 虽然老婆孩子已经原谅了我，但是，这段关系还是需要一些时间医治，我也要特别感谢在这期间，爱我鼓励我和支持我的朋友们。

I strongly believe that our Lord Jesus will not abandon me in my hour of difficulty. 我深信，主耶稣不会在苦难的时候离我而去的。

He won’t Jack… when everyone else fails you or when you fail everyone else… only God will not tui bu qi ni (let you down). :) I hope I get to see you and your family happier and closer than ever before! My own family is still far from the joy and happiness that you were talking about! I guess my time will come! :)

Btw, some Singaporeans are saying that Jack's wife shouldn't forgive him and that she's weak in doing so, etc. I think some may think that forgiving someone means you condone his or her actions? It's not true. Forgiving someone means acknowledging the hurt that the person have caused you but no longer holding onto a grudge against them. You forgiving someone is an act of graciousness and nobility on your own part but that does not equate to saying that what the person did was okay. Irene and the children may have forgiven Jack but he still has to change his ways and pay a price to regain their trust and to rebuild their relationship. Not to mention the public scrutiny and the over-zealous media that he had to endure. That was him reaping what he had sowed.

To end off again, here is the latest music video from Lady Gaga, Telephone! Just premiered today! It’s crazy!! If you are a judgmental, conservative and faint-hearted Christian, I mean, person, I beseech you to do yourself a favor and not watch it! *sticks out tongue* Hahaha! Watch out for what the prison wardens said after throwing her into jail, loves it! Hahaha! It's a sequel to her Paparazzi video btw!

Life’s A Movie… Only Real

2010-03-11T13:48:00.015+08:00

I woke up at 10 plus and the 1st thing I did was to go to Twitter & behold! This @cnalatest tweet appeared before my eyes, "Neo's wife, Irene fainted after the news conference and the director and staff screamed at the media who swamped to the stage to take photos."

Firstly, I’m really surprised that a press conference was held so quickly! Tang Wing Fai, Jack’s manager, said that Jack will “ tell all … after the dust has settled” in this Straits Times article published on Monday. 3 days later, has the dust settled? I’m guessing Jack took a step of faith to do that even before the dust has really settled, especially when he and his wife have now reconciled.

In my blog post yst I said,‘I think that Jack shouldn’t wait till the dust has settled before speaking out, he should do it now and do it fast because the truth will set people free. Or else, the public will just keep speculating about the affairs and tian you jia chu or women that were linked to Jack Neo in the past would just keep spilling the beans. Am I right to think this way, Pastor Tan?’

I took the liberality to tweet the post link to Pst Tan becos I wanted him to know that I was writing about him and to correct the facts if they’re wrong. I don’t know if he read it since he’s a really really busy man holding many portfolios – the second man in-charged of SEA’s largest church, founder of CityCare, a humanitarian organization; and is also a father of 4 young children.

But just a few hours after I published the entry and tweeted him, I found some links that said Jack will hold a press conf the day after. Could it be that Pst Tan, after reading my blog entry, suggested to Jack that he should hold a press conf quickly? I can only imagine.

ST PHOTO: DESMOND LIM

I think that the press conference wasn’t really a press conference because both Jack and Irene are still emotionally distraught and could not reveal much. It had ended in just less than 5 mins. Read about it here.

Irene had almost fainted and the photographers rushed forward to snap pics and Jack Neo shouted at them to get away. Very, very dramatic right!? But this is not a scene from a movie, it happened in real life.

I just watched the clip and I almost teared. The photographers CANNOT MAKE IT... Shoot one million times since the moment they stepped in also cannot get good photos??? Both of them were talking also didn't pause but keep shooting? Not even a least bit sensitive to how Irene feels? She's not a celebrity leh, hello. 1st time in front of so many photographers, sure nervous one. She fell down then they still keep pushing to come forward??? Wa liao, angry.

Saw Jimmy, our church's main security in-charged in the clip. He tweeted this, "Getting breaking news at the expense of your humanity makes you less human... Have been doing this for 6 years. I can handle thieves, sex predators, hostiles... But those w/o conscience? It's my 1st time..."

I loved how Jack's staff or friend, the actor, screamed at the photographers to scram. They totally deserved it. If it were me, I would do the same!

I guess I got my answer to this question, “ Am I right to think this way, Pastor Tan?” I wasn’t right, I was wrong. Both Jack and his wife are too emotionally distraught to handle the media… The wounds will take some time to heal. Jack did not tell all about his affairs and I hope that you reading this would not demand it as well.

Finally, Straits Times has revealed which church Jack is attending in this online article and in today’s papers. Someone from my church, I wonder who, told the papers, 'We are counseling them to reconcile and rebuild their marriage. Irene has forgiven Jack and they are together, spending quality time and going through a process of healing. For now, the church has advised Neo 'to put rebuilding his marriage as his top priority'.

That my friends, is the difference between
Jack Neo’s scandal and Tiger Wood’s.

I am very very very amazed at Irene’s ability to forgive Jack. If I were to put myself in her situation, I don’t think I’ll be able to forgive him so quickly or even see him eye to eye ever again. Married women out that, what are your opinions? If your husband cheats on you, will you forgive him? If the affair was played out in public and it’s not just one woman but several of them, will you forgive him? Jack is right, he is one blessed man to have such a gracious wife. I salute them.

More than 120 people had read my blog yst but 99% chose to be silent about it and I do not know why. The one comment that didn’t prove me wrong about Singaporeans is from this person who also called the models of Fashion In The Sky short and ugly, “ I hate Jack Neo. Disgraceful piece of human being.” Sigh, you are gonna get into a lot of trouble in the future if you continue being so critical girl. :(

Fellow City Harvesters reading this, I do not know what you are thinking at this moment except for the few that responded but I hope that you of all people, will not be the one to cast a stone at Jack. He’s not just a famous movie director that you know anymore; he is your fellow brother-in-Christ that belongs in the same church as you, so does his wife and his children. If there is anything the family needs now, it is our earnest prayers.

To end off, the editor of City News Weekly, Theresa Tan, had direct msged me on Twitter to say that she had read my blog and to look out for an article this weekend! Yay I love my church! =) I hope the article however, will tell me something that I will not be able to read on newspapers anywhere else. That’s the purpose of news isn’t it? It has to be fresh and most importantly, it has to be real. But to do it like the way the photographers did in the clip? Completely unnecessary.

Singapore’s Most Popular/Notorious Film Director at the Moment is also My Fellow Church Member

2010-03-10T16:51:00.028+08:00

I won’t forget the variety show that brought much laughter to my life when I was just a kid, Comedy Night. I’ve also been a faithful follower of Jack Neo’s movies ever since 1998 when I was just 11 years old. I’ve watched 13 of his movies - Money No Enough 钱不够用, I Not Stupid 小孩不笨, Just Follow Law 我在政府部门的日子 , Love Matters 幸福万岁, Where Got Ghost 吓到笑 , Being Human 做人 and more. You name it. :) Not only did I LMAOed, I also teared while watching several of them because the poignant scenes touched my heart. I particularly remember sobbing, and I really do mean sobbing, at some scenes in Homerun 跑吧,孩子 and I Not Stupid Too 小孩不笨2 because I found myself relating to the plight of the actors in the movies... there was a deep connection within my soul. I would even encourage my friends to go catch his movies, clearly, I had been impacted by them.

I was getting my hair styled at Chapter 2 on Sunday afternoon for Fashion In The Sky when I first saw the headlines off my Twitter via @stcom and my jaw dropped in disbelief. Is this for real?? Or is this just some publicity stunt for his new movie? I quickly opened the news link.

When I realized that the actress who played the character of Mark Lee’s sister-in-law in Being Human 做人 is the mistress in question, I was like… no wonder! I caught the movie just 4 days ago and couldn’t help but feel that the actress was out of place… I thought her looks really didn’t fit in with her character or the overall feel of the movie. What’s more, she’s 22 years old, only 1 year younger than me! I can hardly imagine myself having a relationship with someone who is as old as my father… and S’pore’s most well-known director at that!

I first saw Jack Neo in person at a church event at Singapore Indoor Stadium back in 2007... He came to know about us as he used City Harvest Church’s office in Suntec City to film an “explosion” scene for Just Follow Law, most other offices had turned him away. That fateful day, I vividly remember seeing Pastor Tan Ye Peng talking to him from the angle where I was standing. They were only a few rows away from the front of the stage. Straits Times didn’t mention names but I believe that the pastor mentioned in this article is none other than Pastor Tan himself. I think one of the reasons why Straits Times didn’t publicize which church Jack Neo is attending is due to the religious sensitivity we have in this country. If I were a non-Christian bitch ass journalist or a CHC hater, my 1st instinct would be to write this headline, “Jack Neo, a Member of Singapore’s Largest Church, Exposed for His Extra-marital Affairs, Pastor Stands by Him” and interview key church leaders and the members for their point of view. Will this be allowed in Straits Times? I guess not right? Especially when the government is stressing that we need to carefully maintain the religious harmony that we “enjoy”. Haha.

The second time I saw Jack Neo in person was at another church service at Expo Hall 8, and his family members were present as well. I was standing not more than 20 meters away from him… and I saw a smile on his face when one of his sons responded to the altar call.

Jack and his family with Senior Pastor, Kong Hee

and church staff Wenling on the far right. (Source: www.chc.org.sg)

Subsequently, I have only seen him on 2 separate occasions in 2008 and both times he was on stage sharing about his film-making experience, addressing thousands of us. Do I think that the church leadership had made a mistake by helping him promote his movies and getting him to talk to us? Definitely not, because our objective was and still is to help people, even imperfect ones.

That said, I believe that the church leadership was unaware of his extra-marital affairs previously. Had they known, would they still had given him a platform? If I can rightly discern my church leaders well…. I believe they would, after having counseled him and taught him what the bible says but would leave the ball in his court. We are unable to and we cannot and must not force our members to leave sin behind against their own free will anyway. Pastor Kong can preach his heart out to us every week but ultimately, it is still our choice as to the actions that we choose to take. If we choose to sin, then the consequences of it, we have to bear. I believe they wouldn’t give him no platform at all…I like to believe that my church leadership is not as narrow-minded as that... =) After all, we teach people to hate the sin but to love the sinner and to use our talents to benefit society.

However, I wished that Pastor Tan and his personal church friends had developed a deeper relationship with him such that his affairs would have been brought to light and dealt with BEFORE the media came to know of it. That could have saved him and the mistress from a lot of unwanted public scrutiny... Alas, I guess that was not possible with Jack’s tight schedule as a Director; filming must have stretched across many weekends or had taken place overseas or he could have simply kept a distance deliberately for fear of being discovered. As such, I believe Jack was not attending church services regularly in the last 3 years. Do correct me if I’m wrong.

As a new 3-year-old believer, I am not surprised that he still has skeletons in his closet. On a personal note, I have been attending CHC regularly every week for the last 7 years now and I could still remember those days when I was living in sin. Up till now, I still struggle with anger and a lack of patience, just to name a few. But thank heavens I am not a celebrity or I would have lived a life 10 times more horrible when my sins are being found out. The thing about sin is that it has it’s consequences whether you like it or not, a big time sinner like me would know, and Jack is paying his dues now. If you are reading this and you are in an extra-marital affair, please get out of it now before it’s too late, before you destroy yourself and your family with you...

What caught my attention isn’t the number of women that Jack was entangled with or how ugly, or how young they are. What surprised me was his wife’s response - according to the reports, she had apparently knew of the affair a year ago but chose to keep quiet and did not confront him about it! That to me, is… such a high level of Nirvana I don’t think I can ever attain!

I cannot fathom if my future husband commits adultery. I probably will go crazy and ignore him for the next 10 gazillion years. Or I might be so furious I would chop off his penis or something! Aaron Lee Kwang Siong, pls don’t ever do that to me in the future, I might not be able to forgive you! That said, if I ever commit adultery, you don’t have to forgive me either! Though I really don’t believe or think I will... But then again, even the great King Solomon in all his glory and wisdom fell prey. Oh God pls, NO! Help me, I don’t ever want to follow in my father’s footsteps or suffer the same plight that many wives had. :( I think 3 out of every 5 married man cheat on their wives, shit.

Yes, my father had a mistress when I was in Junior College. He came home one night and called her with our house phone. He was in our living room while I was studying in my room. He was talking to her in a very flirting manner in his usual loud voice and I could hear every single word he said. I was completely and utterly disgusted and disappointed… He didn’t even had the decency or the intelligence to speak softly or make the call elsewhere even though my brother and I were at home! What ensued was even more scary…

My mother had left work early to “catch” my father because she suspected that something was amiss. She was eavesdropping as she had been secretly standing outside our front door which my dad had left open. She charged in after they hanged up… My parents then screamed and fought with each other, and my mum even used the broomstick… I think it lasted for at least an hour. I was at a complete lost.

I felt a deep sense of betrayal by my father’s actions to say the least but I have since moved on from that incident… thanks to the support I received from those closest to me... You know who you are. :) I believe my father is no longer in contact with that woman now.

I can comprehend how Jack Neo’s children must feel now... Trust me when I say that adultery is a big deal… It’s not something that will be eradicated from the minds of his wife and children.

Yet,I believe there is still hope. His wife seems like a really strong and gracious woman who is able to forgive him of his misgivings. If Jack is truly sorry for his mistakes and will stop seeing any other women; and keep his eyes glued only to his wife of 20 over years for the rest of his life… I believe all is not lost, and that his children can also come to forgive their father if he is truly repentant.

I found what netizen,@dillyrious, proclaimed on Twitter yesterday somewhat disturbing. She said, “ It frustrates me when Jack Neo is referred as SG's most successful director which reflects how bad SG’s taste is.”

Hello, how many prominent directors are there in Singapore? If it’s not Jack Neo, not Royston Tan then who else can it be? If an artist commits crimes, does it mean that we must boycott his movies? Does it means his movies no longer have any value? We don’t give an artiste any room for errors, do we? Can we not separate an artiste from his art? Are we really that shallow, my fellow Singaporeans?

When Jack Neo bounces back from this saga and makes movies in the future which I believe he will… I will still continue to support them just like I have ever since I was a little girl. Not that I adore Jack Neo but simply because I’m a movie buff and find his films entertaining enough for local standards. Even though the actors in his company might leave, I believe there are many other actors out there who are just as competent, and he can start anew. The human spirit is tenacious. So don’t give up on yourself now Jack! Whatever that doesn’t kill you can only make you stronger!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to downplay his mistakes here. Neither do I condone his actions. Yes, I understand the outrage that many must feel by his complete lack of morals, even though his movies reflect moral values, especially when my father himself had an extra-marital affair… However, what Jack and his family need now, is not another critical Singaporean OR another self-righteous Christian throwing stones or huge rocks at him; what they need now is some personal space and support from friends and church leaders as the fate of the Neo family is at stake and because he must be feeling like the most condemned and ashamed person in the entire world at this point in time and that is a horrible, horrible place to be in. I know it might be hard for you, oh holy ones, to imagine that but I felt a pinch of that in comparison when I had a saga with my relatives during the CNY period.

I think that Jack Neo should not wait till the dust is settled before speaking out, he should do it now and do it fast because the truth will set people free. Or else, the public will just keep speculating about the affairs and tian you jia chu or women that were linked to Jack Neo in the past would just keep spilling the beans. Am I right to think this way, Pastor Tan?

If I’m from City Harvest, why am I not keeping all these to myself you may ask? Surely there is nothing to be proud of by associating myself as a fellow church member of Jack Neo? Or, surely I should learn to protect the reputation of a fellow church member?

I chose to blog about this simply because I have many thoughts on the issue and believe that things happen for a reason - they need to be brought to light so that we can learn from them, and not just conveniently sweep dirty dust under the carpet. It really helps no one in the long run. I have swept too many things under the carpet for too many times so much so that the dust accumulates, seeps out of the carpet, chokes and eventually kills me. I hope City News Weekly will publish an article about it this weekend. This is what I call real news - no matter how ugly it may be, it is life in all it’s reality and there is really no point in hiding or keeping silent.

I’m also hoping to see that Singaporeans will prove me wrong. That we are not who I think we are - a bunch of highly educated, highly moralistic and highly critical people who are quick to judge another for their misgivings.

That said, Mistubishi just dropped Jack as an endorser of it’s air-cons… and I don’t like it. If our local reporters are as earnest as the paparazzi of the west, I bet more scandals would surface in the media and no less than 3 out of every 10 celebrities would be found to be living in some secret sin at some point in their life. I’ve said it before and I’ve said it again, human beings are fragile and imperfect, and anyone and everyone is capable of falling into sin, and that includes church pastors, monks, politicians, celebrities and myself. What is gonna happen then? Drop a celebrity every time his scandal breaks out? Leave a church every time the pastor commits a hideous crime? Life is too unstable if we were to base all our faith, destiny or even a brand upon the morality of a fellow human being. It would be like building your house on sand or straw and not on concrete.

If there is anything that I’ve learnt from this hullabaloo, it is that reputation is but fleeting. One minute you can be the world’s most applauded and loaded billionaire golfer or a highly appraised director and the next minute you can become the most disgraced person on planet earth. What’s the point of putting up a pretty front all the time when almost all of us have some skeletons or unglamorous things in our closet? Eventually, they will all surface one day one way or another. So with this blog, I attempt to “sabotage” myself first before someone else does. ;)

Btw, I’ve been following Jack Neo's Blog for more than a year now; his latest entry on the release of Being Human was posted just last Thursday. Jack, of course, does not talk about his extra-marital affairs on his blog but I wished he had did so openly or at least had shared his struggles in a subtle manner because if he had done that, I believe he wouldn’t be in such deep shit now... At least it didn’t have to take an ~~ugly~~ unhappy mistress to spill the beans! :) He also uses Twitter,betcha didn't know that! =p

Man, it takes so much hard work to write an entry like that. To end off on a "lighter" note, check out this video produced by a 21-year-old “filmmaker”, it won a Nuffnang award. I thought it’s really entertaining, hahaha. With such talent around, there’s still hope for the entertainment scene in Singapore!

I Will Rise

2010-03-06T13:22:00.001+08:00

Just saw this on Madeline's Facebook and have got to share!

I will rise... Join me? :)

Suntec City Convention Hall, the New City Harvest Location?

2010-03-05T16:12:00.006+08:00

I chanced upon this online... zoom in to see the details.

Suntec Convention Hall seems to fit the descriptions well, it is central and can accommodate 12,000 seats. I heard that Suntec isn't doing very well in the books with all the sprouting malls in S'pore and hence I infer that they would likely be keen to sell the Hall to us... Imagine 20,000 more people eating at restaurants in Suntec City every weekend! Ka-ching! =D

However, I think I'll be a little disappointed if it really is Suntec Convention Hall... because:

1. It's not a new building.

I've been dreaming of an iconic, state of the art structure... Victor brought up a good point, in the bible, no church congregation took over buildings yeah? They built the church from the ground up, especially in the Old Testament. But then again, Singapore is extremely small and has too many restrictions for us to build something large to accommodate all 27,000 of us in the central area and yet not be too costly at the same time. And our rent at Expo every weekend is NOT cheap. We need to move and we need to move fast. Not to mention every year getting shoved around from Hall 8 to Hall 1!

2. It's at least a 15 minutes walk from City Hall Mrt!

Hopefully by the time we move in, I would already own a car but if not then.... I can't wear uncomfy heels to church anymore! Haha! Okay I sound like a bimbo. But really, I can imagine myself calling cg members at 5.25pm when service starts at 5.30pm...

Me: "Hello, where are you?"

Member: "I'm at CityLink, walking over!"

Me: "Service starting in 5 mins still walking over huh."

Me to usher trying to take away the seats,

" My members are coming already!!! "

I'll end up ~~quarreling~~ arguing with the ushers as usual. *Faints*

LOL.

3. Hmm, where are the annual IT Fairs that are usually at Suntec gonna be held then? I don't want the public to throw stones at us.

Some members of the public have been throwing enough stones at us already, if we antagonize them any further, I don't think they're gonna be very nice. But then again, those people aren't nice to us right from the start, wacking us to no end in the forums. No matter what we do, they still won't be happy so... who cares. :)

Come to think of it, Suntec Convention Hall really isn't such a bad place afterall, it's really right smack central in S'pore and it sure beats having to travel to Expo every weekend. And there are a lot of eateries to choose from. ~~Aaron Lee Kwang Siong,~~ I want to buy a house that is on the East West line so I can be near church, near everything. Go opm at Suntec can walk home after that, hahahaha kidding!

Wherever it is, I trust Pastor Kong that it will be the best location for our church, given the circumstances. He is one of the greatest men that I've ever known. Just one more day to knowing but the crux is really raising the $310 million for it. I think we've raised about $100 million so far already? Just another $210 million to go! Hahaha. We can do this! :)

P.S: I'm contemplating on going to S1 instead with Jamie tmr so you Tweeters won't spoil it for me! Hahaha!

We Had Fits Over This

2010-03-05T04:56:00.008+08:00

Did you get my sarcastic humor? :)

The video editor has finally finished his masterpiece

after 4 days of losing sleep over it.

Show him some love if you like it!
I don't know if I have anymore left to give.

All the quarreling has affected me.

My fave part is of course the ending, I think you'll know why. :)
Maybe I've been singing the chorus of Bad Romance so often
that it becomes a reality in my life! So shingz! Hahaha!

Ris Low has RSVPed "Attending" to Fashion In The Sky! ;)

I really hope she comes, I wanna talk to her!

If only I know how to edit videos myself
then I don't have to depend on someone else to do it!
But I know I'll pull all of my hair out before I succeed, hahaha!

Anyway, you can help the Haitians
rebuild their lives by donating via Give.sg.
Every dollar counts.

The media isn't reporting much about them now
but they're still suffering from the
aftermath of the devastating earthquake.

Last but not least

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Walk, walk, fashion baby!

Tee hee.

I bought a $63 dress from New Look especially for it!

Thank you Janet for going shopping with me and helping me to choose. :)

Comeeeeeeeeeee and see me wear the cute dress, it FITS! =D

It's Complicated

2010-03-01T12:30:00.010+08:00

I quarreled with the boyfriend yet again. And this time it's over video editing for Fashion In The Sky photo shoot and fitting session. I had told him that I wanted the video by 12 midnight yesterday and he only told me that that couldn't be done just 2 hours before. He didn't give me an alternative earlier, he didn't respond to my suggestions, he didn't asked for the videos to be given to him earlier, nothing. And he expects me to not be upset with him.

Why couldn't he just told me that he's not up for it? I could have found someone else to help instead of putting my hopes in him. I'm in charged of video hosting and publicity for the event and naturally I would be most urgent about it being put up on the web as soon as possible so that I can attract more people to attend the event. And we are only less than 6 days away from it.

I'm disappointed. Men have disappointed me so many times.... Yesterday, Enrique was supposed to come and help me with video shooting and he fly aeroplane one hour before the photoshoot. And I had to frantically look for videographers and thank God for Wilson Chua who referred me to Shyan who referred me to Eugene Soh, and he brought his friend William Paul Orchard along. And mind you, they were complete strangers to me and yet they came and help out for hours despite such last min notice with no complaints. They even had so much fun. And I was so happy interviewing the make-up artists, the blogshop owners and the models, chattting with everyone, etc.

And when I got home at 10ish? Bam. There were rice beads all over the floor, in the living room, kitchen, toilets, everywhere and furniture was shifted, and it looked worst than before. Who did that? My father. Why did he do it? To apparently chase away evil spirits in the house. As if evil spirits will be afraid of rice beads!? The maid is gonna be really pissed when she comes over tmr to see how messed up the house is. And it's not me, none of it is me. Please never associate the mistakes of my father with me, we are two separate people. His mistakes have got nothing to do with me and I am not responsible for his mistake, period.

Just what is wrong with men? I have seen great men but they are few and far between. Even the anointed Benny Hinn is getting a divorce. Maybe I should stop dreaming about getting married and living my happily ever after. Maybe I should marry a woman so I never have to be disappointed the way I'm always disappointed with men. Maybe I should just stay single and unattached for the rest of my life and become a nun or something. Lol.

Today's entry could have been titled, "It's A Wrap!" and the Youtube video of the photoshoot pasted here. But no, it's titled "It's Complicated." because life is never as simple as I had imagined or wanted it to be. Not to mention the shocking news I saw this morning... Life is complicated, very complicated and I'll be lying to you if I say I never have to deal with stupid people or any issues or struggle through them.

What a great way to start off my March 2010! HA.